Slowly Fading (A Harry Styles Fan Fiction)

Chapter One~

Harry's Pov

The next morning was dark and dreary. It was raining, lightning was piercing the sky and the thunder was crashing.

Of course these were my favorite type of days. Day's like these were like visual representations of the storms constantly raging threw my mind and I enjoyed them. The dark and gloominess of it all was nice.

That probably sounded strange, but put yourself in my position. Just try to in vision yourself in the place of someone that suffers from depression. All I ever want to do is be in the dark, and on these day's the dark follows me around.

Day's like these also remind me how I'm starting to give up on everything, because day's like these I have the whole day to think.

I'm surprised at myself, at how long I've lasted without pushing myself off the edge. You see depression is like a war. You either win, or you die trying.

And I can feel myself leaning toward dying trying.....because its hard to keep going when there isn't a point to it.

I try to tell myself I'm happy with who I am, but I hate almost everything about myself when I think about it. So its hard to look at myself everyday and tell myself that I'm strong enough to keep on going.

I'm one of those people that tries to keep everyone happy, because I don't want them to end up the way I did. Depressed and torn apart.

I wish I could go back to the day's where I could smile......and it didn't take everything in me to do it. I wish I could go back to the time where I had a family. I wish I could go back to the time when everything was innocent.

Its too late now. Whats done is done. The past can't be changed, not that I could do anything about most of it.

My phone buzzed against the flat surface of the counter top. The screen read one of my favourite names.

"Ariel"

She was my best friend, she was the only one that could make me smile for real. She didn't know about everything that was going on with me, but she sure does know how to make me smile.

I answered the phone call without hesitation. Something I wouldn't do for anyone else.

"Hello?" I answered.

"Harry?" She said happily.

"Hey!" I replied.

"Guess where I am right now." she giggled.

"Um.........Your bedroom." I guessed laughing at myself.

"Nope wrong." She paused.

"Look outside your window in your living room." She said, I could feel her smiling threw the phone.

I got up off the couch and looked out my window. I smiled seeing the blond haired girl that I hadn't seen in months standing on the sidewalk outside my flat.

"Oh my god! what are you doing in London?" I asked her surprised.

"My mum paid for my flight here. She's letting me take a week off of school to come and spend time with you."

"Well are you going to stand outside in the rain? or are you going to come up here and give me a hug?" I asked her impatiently.

"I'll be right there." She said as she hung up the phone.

It was only five minuets before there as a quiet knock on my door. I quickly rushed over to it, swinging it open revealing the face that I've missed for almost nine months. She immediately dropped her suet case and jumped into my arms. I engulfed her in a tight warm hug. God I missed her so much. Ever since she had moved to the U.S for collage we barley ever saw each other. I alway's offered to fly her out to come and see me but her schedule was not very flexible.

"My god, I missed you so much!" She almost whispered into my neck.

We stayed in each others embrace for a long while before we parted. She was smiling at me as we walked into my living room.

She alway's made herself at home, here. So she went straight to my couch where there were blankets and pillows scattered over it. They were alway's there, I liked being comfortable while watching t.v.

I sat down beside her. She smiled again.

'So how's your busy life been Harold?" She giggled.

"Its been great." I said.......lying through my teeth.

I hated the fact that I had to lie to her. She deserved to know considering she had some problems of her own. She has alway's been there for me, threw thick and thin, but I can't say anything to her. Its would be to much for her to handle. She wouldn't know how to take that.

"That's good." She said closing her eyes.

"And what about you Miss Ariel. How has your life been going?" I questioned.

"Its been going well actually, Mr. Harry. I'm graduating collage in a few months." she stated proudly.

"Well that's good to hear."

"Yeah, its been nice in the states but I think I'm ready to move back home. To England, this is where I alway's want to be."

I nodded. It was understandable. We both grew up here, we've been friends since the fourth grade. I know she loves it here, as do I. I wouldn't want to move anywhere else.

The rest of the day was rather peaceful. It was the first day in months I laughed for real. Both me and Ariel just sat in my living room talking and watching movies. Catching up on whats been going on. Of course I wasn't truthful with her.

Now its !2:00am and she's asleep beside me on the sofa. She looks so cute when she sleeps. I smile to myself, and carry her into my bed room and lay her down. I crawl in beside her, whispering goodnight to her even though she's asleep.

The room is dark and my eyes are getting heavier and heavier. This is the first time in 9 months I've fallen asleep with out my sleeping pills.

And its such a peaceful feeling.

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Author's Note

Wey hey mutha fuckass

waddup? oh nothing? Just reading my boring ass chapter? lol okay

Tanks for reading bbs <3 I lu u *Mr.Russel kissing noise threw the speakers* < only my friends will get that lol so um yeah lol bye