Dreaming with you

Chapter 14

Amanda

I woke up late in the night in cold sweat and thirsty. After I changed my shirt I walked to the kitchen to find something to drink. I just hoped Bastian still kept the bags in his room. I wasn't sure if I was ready to see them yet. When I took the glass I realized my hands were shaking. Good lord what was I thinking? I was definitely in state of shock being so calm earlier.

First I thought he was crazy. Than that I was crazy. I still think that. No sane person would hug a man who moments before told her that he needs to drink blood to survive. But he looked so afraid that I would leave. He was scanning my face while he explained everything to me. He was searching for a sign of fear, repulsion, and who knows what. In that moments I felt neither. I would never be afraid of him. But I was terrified what will happen with us. I wasn't stupid. I knew there were only two paths. Us staying together forever and me becoming a vampire, and me leaving him now. Third, in which he gets bored of me, was not even an option.

I knew he cared. I saw that and I felt that. I knew he wanted to keep me. But I was too young for him. I still had to turn 20 and he was almost four hundred. Being born in the 1616 it would make him three hundred and ninety-nine. I was wondering why he never chose someone of their own kind. Wasn't that easier?

Suddenly it was very funny to me that I believed him that his mother was actually 46. No way in hell. Arranged marriage with his father at the age of 16? Ha! I was such a fool. The woman was six centuries old. William was her oldest child born in 1510 although he looked no day older than 26 or even younger. And his dear Emily as he called her was youngest, born in almost modern age in 1894. He never mentioned their father and I didn't dare to ask.

They could obviously be out in the daylight and that was draining them but not burning or killing.

He told me about his dreams. About his inability to control them, to see what is important. About seeing his sister suffer. I felt bad for him but could do nothing to help him.

I needed him in that moment to lay everything in the open. I wanted to know what I did wrong in the book.

He explained that each of them has a power and honestly I thought that what Will could do is far the best. Teleportation? So cool. And Bastian totally agreed. Speaking of the devil, or vampire in this case, Will came into the room. He was out of his suit, and had dark gray tracksuit on. I somehow thought that it suits him better.

"Penny for your thoughts?" He said taking the seat opposite of me on the other sofa. Like he wanted to keep the distance.

"Teleport your mother here and she will tell you." I dryly joked. I waited to see his reaction but he kept poker face.

"I know Bastian told you. Sometimes we catch sounds we don't want to. It was not my intention to eavesdrop."

"You don't have to explain", I told him.

"But you do", he retorted. "You are sitting here for the whole hour. What's wrong?"

I chuckled. "What's wrong? Nothing is wrong except the fact that my... I don't know, boyfriend, is not the same species as I am. I think that is good enough reason not to sleep!"

He just stared at me. "Sorry", I said, "I didn't mean to explode like that, it's just too much information now."

"And emotion?" He asked.

"Yes, that too", I signed sitting down again when I realized I was on my legs.

Does it bother you, that he told me. It was your secret too after all.

"No", he leaned back relaxing. 'I love my brother so much. He deserved to have someone he will tell. And I am glad it is you. i like you. I think you are good for him. Please, don't prove me wrong. Make him happy, would you?"

The sadness he carried in his eyes now reached his voice.

"I'll try", I said, "if he will let me. He is sometimes so closed. Now I realize why, and it bothers me", I confessed." I lied to him Will that I am ok, but I am not. Not entirely. I have never been impulsive person. I like to think, to plan. I can't not wonder how my life is going to look if I stay. I will have to leave my family, to constantly move. I am not sure I am strong enough for that.

Please don't tell him I told you all this.

"I know how to keep a secret or two", he smiled.

"Will", I asked him a question I didn't dare to ask myself, "Could he love me? I mean really love me. The forever kind? I know how stupid..."

"It is not stupid. We all face that question sometimes in life. And I think he loved you from the moment he read your book. You should have seen him that night he first saw you. His eyes were glowing. Like yours do when you talk about him. Sometimes it is as simple as that." He smiled but the smile never reached his beautiful eyes. "Now, go to bed. Sleep and leave hard thinking for tomorrow."

When I stood he did too. I realized it was custom from the older times. I stood on my toes on kissed his cheek. "Thank you for this Will. Good night"

When I came back into the room I sleep in, I saw two missed calls from Kelly. Shit, I was such a bad friend. I haven't called her once since she sent my things here. But I was afraid what too tell her. I needed to come up with a good story for her and for my parents. I haven't changed my mind. I still wanted to take Bastian with me to the dinner. I wanted to see how will that go.

Exactly ant two pm on Friday Bastian parked the car in front of my house. He was silent all morning and I realized he was nervous. I was too, fighting the urge to tell him to turn the car and get us out of there. But I didn't want to be a coward. And he was not that either.

"Are you sure", he asked, "we can do this, another time?"

"I am sure. Let do this" I said more to myself.

"Just don't pass out. They will think I molested you." he joked and earned a smile from me. 

Okay, here comes nothing.