You're My Everything

I didn't flinch when someone sat next to me at the lunch table. I knew who it was. Dan.

He let out a long sigh and slouched over, his fingers intwined and his fringe falling in his face. "What happened this time?" I asked while sighing along with him.

"Rebecca happened. Now I have no hope of ever getting a girlfriend because I've already asked out every girl at this school and nobody wants to be with me." I wanted to tell him that I would go out with him and that he didn't need any of those girls. But of course, that wouldn't be a very good idea.

"I know, Dan. It'll be okay though, I mean just because you don't have a girlfriend in high school doesn't mean you'll never have one," I said instead. He finally looked at me and smiled. A soft smile where the corners of his eyes crinkled slightly and his dimple popped out.

"Thanks, Phil. You always know what to say." I gave him a sad smile and went back to eating my lunch.

Dan and I have been best friends since middle school where we first bonded over who could beat who at Mario kart. Dan had won and after that our friendship sparked and is continuing to grow. However, I had quite I big problem because over the years, I have slowly began crushing on Dan until now I really think I love him. Oops?

I mean sure he's straight...I think? But its kinda nice having a crush on someone that I can see and talk to everyday. Until Dan decided that the only way he was gonna get a girlfriend was if he asked out every girl at this school, but both of us knew that most of the girls here cared more about their hair than homework.

I want to tell him about how I feel but I know that will just ruin the friendship and I honestly wouldn't know what to do if he likes me back. So everyday I listen to him talk about another failed attempt at getting a girlfriend and everyday I keep my happiness down because honestly I would probably die if Dan ever got a girlfriend.

"Can I come over today? I kinda just feel like playing video games and laughing and drinking soda," Dan asked. I lit up at the suggestion even though we hang out almost everyday. I smiled and said "Is that even a question?"

Once the last bell rang I gathered my things and headed towards my locker. I put some textbooks away and closed my locker. Dan was always by his locker after school so I headed over there.

I was happy. I loved the days when Dan would come over and we would just hang out and he would talk about the universe and I would talk about lions and random facts I'd found the night before. As I rounded the corner to where Dan's locker was, I stopped in my tracks and went back around the corner, hiding behind it.

"Really? I love video games too!" I heard Dan say. "Awesome! That's my favorite one too!" I peeked around again and saw Dan talking with a girl I hadn't seen before. She was wearing a giant smile on her face. Oh no you don't, I thought to myself, that's my true love.

I put on a casual face and walked around the corner, talking while I walked towards them. "Hey Dan, you ready to play some video games or maybe build a giant fort or we could watch some movies and drink so much soda that we have to pee every 10 minutes!" I acted surprised as Dan gave me a horrified expression. The girl looked at me too with confusion and annoyance on her face.

"Oh sorry, am I...interrupting something? I'm sorry Dan I didn't know." I gave him an 'I'm sorry' smile. "I'm sorry, is this your boyfriend?" the girl asked with her nose scrunched up. I felt my face heat up and so did Dans. "What? No no! This is-this is my best friend Phil." I've never seen Dan this nervous before. The girl rolled her eyes. "Ugh! I knew you were too good to be true. It's obvious you two are together. Bye Dan." And with that she walked off.

Obvious? I thought as Dan fumed next to me. We walked in silence to my house but I knew at any moment he was just going to yell at me. We don't fight very often. If we every did, they were over stupid things. But this time, I was actually kind of scared. He was probably waiting until we got to my house to tell me what he was feeling.

And I was right. Just as I closed the door, he let it all on me. Luckily my parents weren't home so they didn't have to hear this.

"I can't believe you would do this Phil! You know how much I want a girlfriend and Cat was new at the school! I actually had a chance! We liked all the same things and she was actually pretty cool. I just can't believe you right now, you obviously did it on purpose! So why?! Why would you do it?"

I flinched at his words. Dan has never screamed at me before. Before I knew it, silent tears fell down my face. I wiped them away quickly. I can't believe I'm crying in front of Dan Howell.

"PHIL! Please answer me!" Dan yelled again. But I saw it too. Tears. He was crying. Anger started to build as I felt my skin become hot. I can't believe he would yell at me for something this stupid I can't believe he cares more about a girl than me. My hands clenched into fists but I kept my eyes low to the ground.

"Why did you do it, Phil!?!" I heard Dan scream again. I lifted my eyes to his and clenched my fists tighter. "BECAUSE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU!" I squeezed my eyes tight and felt more tears trailing down my cheeks.

It was silent. Oh crap that was a bad idea. I brought my hands back to my sides and slouched my shoulders forward. I finally opened my eyes and looked at Dan.

His face was a mixture of confusion and realization and a little anger. He looked like he was lost in his thoughts. "Dan.." I said softly this time. He didn't react. "Dan, you're my everything. You're my sun and the stars and the moon. You're everything beautiful in this world. Your smile could cure cancer and your laugh is like the sweetest song. And your eyes do this thing where they smile and your dimple pops out and-"

I was cut off by a pair of lips on mine. It took me a second to realize they were Dan's and I quickly melted into the kiss. I reached up and held his face in my hands while I kissed him back. He pulled me closer and we separated, placing our foreheads together. Our breathing hitched.

My face flushed as I looked into Dans eyes because what I saw there was something I thought I'd never see before.

Love.

And I grinned because his eyes did this weird thing where they smiled and I just knew that he loved me too.