"I wanna be the selfish bitch this time. ITS FUCKING UNFAIR. You can't leave me. No. No"
The tears poured doen my face I didn't want this its unfair.
Normally this would be the time I faint, the smell the posters with wounds and blood, the noises I hated and I hate it even more now.
So what why can't I be a selfish bitch! I've lost my perants and the last person who loves me is dieing. God why do you hate me.
I cant wake up so the fears to strong.
I hate him sometimes. But hooked up hearing his heart rate pick up I'm scared. Who's gonna beat up the guys who hurt me? Hug me when I cry? Let me win cause I've had a shit day? Buy me my books when im broke? Fight with me? I'm losing it all. Then who iam know I have nothing. Fear. For the unknown makes me react now. A simple cut. One. Two. Three. Then its all gone. Pain. Fear. Feeling.
Then I hear it "wake up hunny," mum tears, screams. Scare her more then anything. I've lost her once never again.
I'm sorry I just need to write it.
