Fighting addiction book 1: the start

Story one.

Meet dani. She started a struggle with OxyContin when she was 18 and now she just turned 22.

Interviewer: "so dani how did you get started on these pills?

Dani: "well when I was younger my mom used to put a lot of pressure on me and I started with pot but it ended up leading to other things but I couldn't bring my self to shoot up on some drug that I didn't know anything about so my friend Matt told me that he could score OxyContin and I wanted to try it but it went farther than I wanted it became something that I couldn't control."

Interviewer: so do you remember what caused you to start doing it besides just school would you share?"

Dani: " I remember it all to well and yes I will tell."

I remember being about 14 I guess and my mom shipped me off to some private school in London because she wanted to keep me from my dad but she didn't wanna deal with me either. I mean a few calls here and there didn't mean anything to anyone and most importantly me. When she did finally come back to get me she told me that the person that i always thought was my dad wasn't and I instantly had a new family and people wanting to get to know me and it was a lot I found my self drinking a lot but with the way my mom was or still is I put an end to it with the help of a friend. But I got life on track and then no faster than that everything fell apart so fast my boyfriend broke up with me because he thought I cheated on him which I never did nor would I ever. Things where good when I met another guy and everything was good it was going great we even talked about going farther with our relation ship and even tried once then my dad walked in, we ran away to my aunts cabin to try but then my sister and her "friend" crashed my party and we where still going to try but I got scared I backed out and I did that more than once I was scared I was nervous I don't really think I trusted him, but when I wouldn't have sex with him he found someone else that would he got the bright idea to do a porn with some whore at a hotel for $2,000. It hurt a lot and that's when the pot and everything started. It didn't end there the worst was just staring. They always said that pot was the gateway drug and I never thought that it was true I just thought that the teachers and everything just scaring us from trying it.

Interviewer: "so when you say it just started what does that mean?"

Dani: "well I guess that it means that I had the money I mean my mom well for a while she never noticed that I asked for a lot of money and then when she did I always had an answer like it was no big deal and I sure as hell wasn't gonna tell anyone what I did, but stealing money for pot wasn't the only stupid thing I did I mean I was good at hiding what was bothering me and it didn't hurt anyone else or so I thought. I soon realized that I was becoming more distant from everyone and I was extremely irritable I would go off on everyone for no reason and it got to the point that I would have to smoke like 3 hours just to get a little high but it got extremely bad and I knew that I had to stop before it got to far and I see now that it got really far a little to far for my liking.

Interviewer: "so I know that it didn't stop at pot but when it get the point of you doing OxyContin?"

Dani: "I had had many people offer it to me and then many people off to help or show me how to shoot up and stuff like that and it scared me the idea of doing something that could damage me for life and I didn't wanna come to a place like this I didn't wanna end up 20 something or in this case 22 and in rehab it wasn't me."

Interviewer: "so when you say it wasn't you what does that mean did smoking change you from the person you where in high school to the person you where?"

Dani: "yes it changed me a lot I had a 4.0 GPA and I was the good girl the no lets Waite girl the I would do everything to please my mom kid and I guess I buckled under the pressure from my mom to get in to the college that she thinks I should go to and then my sister thinking I should be just like her I mean I changed from my 11th grade year to my 12th grade year I went from easygoing and studying hard as hell and not partying or starting fights to not caring I didn't study I started fights all the time and I just wanted to party the more partying the better I would have rather smoked pot or drank a lot than hang with my family like on Christmas I spent a good part of the day in my room smoking and drinking knowing that my family was right down stairs and it got to the point that I just didn't care."