living my life with one direction

backstage after party

Cecelias POV

well the concert just ended and now its time to go backstage but for some reason im not as happy as I think I should be, but maby its because reality just hit me and I realized how many people have VIP passes, meaning they have too many people to be even be paying attention to me even if they wanted to.

we all get put in groups with who ever it is we came with and for me it would be just me and nay, lucky us.

my favorite is Louis but he has a girlfriend so then I geuss it would be Harry then Zayn then Liam then Niall. no hard feelings twards niall I like him, its just a little less then I do the others but he is very much attractive in many ways but I dont know I just dont =/. its almost our turn to go. nothing even if I get I cant seem to get nervous. is there something wrong with me ? am i crazy ?

"ladies!! " i think he is trying to snap me and tanazjia out of our day dreaming but only they are for two totally different reasons mines being confused and tanazjias being shocked and overwelmed.

" oh im sorry...Mr......"

" whatever just go and hurry up, i wanna go home."

rude!!

we start walking but tanazjia is totes starstruck and can barely hold her stance. once we get to the hallway that leads to each of the boys' dressing rooms. we argue about who to collect first then we finnaly agree on liam, niall, zayn, harry, then louis. we start walking then we come to a bathroom and decide that it would be safe if we went now before we meet the boys because we all know what will happen if we dont.

I come out the bathroom expecting to see nay but with my luck she's gone, but im not to worried for her because she watches enough of madea to learn from her and she always wins a fight even though she is the size of a twig (exaggeration duhh keep up ).

walking out of the bathroom i decide that i am going to spend my time wisely and go meet them myself. so by now i probably look like a lost puppy wondering up and down the halls but i know i will soon find them. and with that i feel someone grab me by my wrist and pull me twards them, then i am spinning around on my heels to get a better look but i dont need a better look to know who it is i am being encountered by its liam but i know he doesnt mean any thing by this because he is maddly in love with danny and they are perfect for each other and plus i dont fancy him as much as i do louis =).

" sorry if i startled you but you looked lost and i would be a teerrible host if i was to just let you wonder the halls. hi im liam and this is harry and zayn." refuring to the two guys behind him but i play it cool like i dont know who they are because i read in a couple of books that they fancy girls that arnt totally OMFG ITS ONE DIRECTION over them they just want someone to treat them normaly and can talk to about things other than money and getting them famous because that is mostly all the girls they meet want is their fame. but i for a fact am not like that but i would love to hook up with louis but he is with ell.

"Hello Harry, Zayn, and hello Liam. Im acctually here with my bestfriend to meet a group called one direction? do you by any chance know where i can find her i kind of lost her in the bathroom, i know thats weired and i probubly would have been ok with keeping that to myself. sorry but do you know where i might find her?"

they are so surprissed i think i did pretty good but i know it was wrong but it wasnt big enough to hurt people even if they did find out i was a fan what are they going to say? ' ah cecelia you are a fan omg you lied now we must kill you !!! '

no thats not going to happen.

"Are you being serious right now you honestly dont know who ONE DIRECTION IS !?"