The sound of people laughing makes me both happy and scared. Laughing is fun and it's fun to make people laugh. Only... sometimes I feel like people could be laughing at me. My anxiety kicks in. I feel like people are making fun of me, judging me. So I get scared. And nervous. I guess everyone's afraid of not being accepted. It can't just be me. Like I said though, making people laugh makes me happy. I like to laugh. I love it actually. But I like it when people are laughing with me, not at me. But, I get really anxious and scared. I'm shy around everyone, expect my friends. I don't like getting up in front of a class and reading aloud. What if I mess up? There would be more laughing. Why can't society accept people no matter if they mess up or if they don't? I don't know. But I do know I wanna be accepted. And so does everyone else, I'm guessing.
