To the person who I consider as the wrong choice that always turns right.
You are the best guy I ever met.
You're unpredictable.
Im an observer and a mind reader but I cant even read your eyes.
One minute,you're okay,another minute,you're not.
You always have these kind of eyes that I always want to look at,...before.
I consider them as mysterious yet beautiful. The mystery that I want to know.
Before,even though it hurts me, I choose not to be selfish and just forget about my feelings. I wish to the stars I always see above everynight,for a sign. A sign that would give me a hint for the options I made for myself, and the options are:
to Stay or to Walk away.
I really dont want to walk away that time,actually,I want to stay with you yet you leave me no choice and I walked away.
I always feel confused and frustrated at the same time whenever I talk to you.
Remember the days we're texting each other about weird stuffs?
That was cool. I miss that.
It might sound weird but the feeling whenever Im with you was a magical one. I never feel my insecurities when Im with you. Im confident with who I am.
You're a puzzle piece that I want to solve.
Sometimes,I regret the decision that I did before,being selfless, but I just cant imagine making a girl cry for stealing her guy. Im not a relationship wrecker.
Im just a girl who accidentally fell in love with a guy who's already committed to someone.
A girl who has a secret crush to a chinky guy for almost 2 years.
I never intended to be your friend. But thank you for being one.
Last year,Ive decided to walk away. To stay away from you because I dont wanna die from this feelings, I consider it as a poison.
I kept it until I met someone named Knight.
He was just friend before.
He's an HRM graduate.
He was really a Knight for me. He saved me from drowning in this feelings I have for you.
He's a sweet version of you.
We talked and talked and talked every night.
He always sing a song for me.
Before I knew it, I fell in love with him.
But you came back, and it ruined everything in me.
You came back.
And then,my feelings came back too.
I realized it when I heard a rumor about you with another girl. She's smart,beautiful and kind.
Im not very used to this kind of feeling, this insecurities is a poison.
I never thought this feelings that came back is love, this is just a crush.
I knew it. This is just a crush. Ive already move on from that love thing.
And also, I already have someone I love the most.
So,again,I decided to just walk away from you. Forget this crush stuff. And just be your friend.
Thank you for everything.
And Im sorry too.
I wont say why I thank you and why Im apologizing to you.
I wont reason out.
Cause reasons makes things more complicated.
