thoughts

shit

i hate being alone sometimes, it gives me time to think
i hate having time to think cause thinking makes my heart sink
is it done? this "break" were on? can we talk one more time?
do you miss me a little or even at all? is this misery all mine?
you said "im not ready, i just need some space to breathe"
so i loosened my grip , gave you room but your slipping away from me
on top of that you have no clue i see the messages you've received.
you once made me feel beautiful, now I'm drowning in my insecurities
was the girl with long hair the reason you needed "time to be alone"?
i can lose weight, put makeup on my face, give my hair time to grow.
i was so against love cause it never works out, i broke my rules for you.
but you fucked me right up, screwed me around, now everythings turned blue.
you never put your faith in me, accused me of shit that ain't true
now the tables'turned, cause you played me good, spotlights on you.
still i can't sleep at night without you, weak as Fuck without you by my side
But you couldn't care less and i can bet, I'm the only one hurting tonight.