The Broken Road

Chapter 2

Walking into this high school flashes back so many memories. My old friends, teachers, and... Him. I guess I'm too obsessive with him but, oh well. He was 5 years older than me... People tell me to move on or find someone my own age. I was engaged to him. Yes, I slept with him, many times. I still felt the spark though. I was madly in love with him. Just when someone mentions him, my heart jumps. I wish I could feel him, hear his voice. He made the funniest jokes and he always free styled. I acted annoyed but honestly, I found it quite adorable. He was perfect for me.

"Ellie! Oh my god is that you?! You've changed so much! You cut your hair too! Jesus man! You changed a fuck ton!"

"Yeah. I guess I have Kate. I just got sick of my long hair and chopped it off myself haha. I do miss my long hair though."

Katie was my ultimate best friend. She stuck it out with me since me and him first got together. Honestly, she's helped me through this... It's been over a month since he turned himself in. I wish I could change our whole dynamic of our relationship. I don't want another flashback.

"I love you so much... I'll be here when you get out. I'm not taking this ring off. It's staying on. I'm going to miss you Shane..."

The thing is... I tried moving on since he turned himself in. I tried dating a couple people. I had to leave them. I didn't last more than 4 days with either of them. They just aren't like him. I only want him. 

Oh shit. The bell rang. Better get to class. I don't want to be late on my first day haha.

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The first person I see when I walk in, is the person I can't stand the most. Jessica. If she says one damn thing, I may just flip. I guess I'm too nice to say anything back though, or even beat her ass.

"Oh hey Ellie. What's up?"

I glared at her. Fake bitch. She had that fake, evil smile. She knows she bothers me. That's why she's still trying to talk to me. 

I can't help but think about the future. What will it bring??

"Ellie Cane?"

"Oh! Here!" 

I raise my hand kinda shyly. I should probably pay more attention to my surroundings instead of my brain. I'm always making a fool of myself. 

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So I guess lunch was kinda good. I guess. A corn dog and an orange. Yay... (Total sarcasm.) All I'm thinking right now is that this lunch sucks, school sucks, people suck, everything sucks without him. His name echoes in my brain... All I can think about is him.

"Her legs are so fat and scabby ew! Ha ha!"

"They're so gross!!"

That's all I can hear as I walk by. I shouldn't of even worn a dress or dressed up. I regret it so much. Like why do I dress up for idiots? I see these people every single day except for breaks, for about 12 or 13 years or more. So it shouldn't really matter.

I'm now in third block, I choose a seat away from everyone. I don't want to sit next to anyone. I feel like no one likes me. At all. Maybe I could make friends this year. I still hear his words echo in my head.

"Don't worry babe, I love you still. If I see someone bullying you I'll beat their ass."

I miss that. 

I sit there and I feel my face turn red and tears well up in my eyes. Why? Why did you have to make such dumb decisions...