I was spiraling into the abyss of darkness; I knew I was screaming, yet there was no sound. The smell of smoke was choking me and i felt that i was on the verge of death. As my vision faded and my life slowly came to a close...I woke up. I woke up tangled in my suffocating sheets. I woke up to my desperately empty life. i woke up screaming into the quiet of the house. My sceams echoed, but i know nobody hears me. How do i know that? because i am alone.
I have always been alone, trapped inside of my psyche. Nothing i have ever believed has been believed in the minds of others. My entire life has been a lie, soley based on a disease that has eaten away at my brain since the moment i took my first breath. I have lived in a fantasy world that could never be a reality. At no fault of my own, i have been decieved.
in the entirety of my existance i have not wept for the lies i have been told. I thrived in them, these phantoms of everyone i have ever known.
The creeping feeling of the silence urged me out of bed.I turned on my light and went to the bathroom to splash icy water on my face. The clock read 3 A.M. and it was storming outside. i sat back on my bed and opened the bedside tables drawer to find my perscriptions. The doctors have put me on alot of different medication over the years to deal with my...problems. Of course they never help; the monsters always creep back in like the wind.
