I Can't Do This Anymore (Andy Biersack fanfic)

Now the chapter is going to start off a bit violent. And I'm sorry if its a bit slow for the story to really pick up but I have to explain the characters life first. Then we will get to the juicy stuff. And by the way Andy is 21 in this story, but has all the success and music of current time

Chapter 1: I Can't Do This Anymore

I woke up on the worst day of my life. It seemed like any other normal day, but it was the day that finally made me snap. I'm going to kill my self tonight. When I get home. I just have to get out of this place. The kids at school are complete assholes, my dad is abusive and my mom ran away without me when I was 5. I'm 17, I'll be 18 in a month. So I can move out without say right. Why should I end it? "Because no one likes you, your a complete waste of space. Your dad hates you, same with your mom, all the kids at school hate you (including the ones that are like you), your boyfriend didn't want you. Your ugly"

"SHUT UP," I scream at the top of my lungs as I collapse in the grass. Some people look at me, giving me weird looks. Well I bet they would say the same thing if they had a voice saying that in their head. I picked myself up off the grass and continued on to my house. In a couple more days of work I will have saved up enough money to buy a car. I of corse have to hide it so my dad doesn't use it to buy beer.

As I reach my house I slowly open it. Hoping he's passed out on the couch. There are the usual beer cans that litter the floor. New each day because I clean up after him.

"Where the fuck have you been?" Just my luck. He's still awake.

"I was at school." I say then proceed to my room.

"Well where the fuck are you going now?"

"I have to go study then go to work." I finish quietly. He works at a construction site downtown, well used to. He was injured on the job and now just sits at home collecting money from the government.

"Well get me a beer first." I walk into the kitchen and open the fridge to find one beer left, along with rotting leftover food.

"Here. This is the last one." I quickly hand it to him and practically run for the stairs.

"GET THE FUCK BACK HERE!" He then throughs a lamp at me, barley missing me and hitting the wall in front of me. I collapse on the stairs, falling on glass in the process. He runs up to me and starts hitting me. I keep my head down trying to not let my face get hit. Then I won't be able to cover it up. He stops and gets really close my face. You can smell the alcohol on his breath like if you were in a brewery. And it's worse when he speaks

"I was going to ask you to get me more. Then get dinner. But you just RUN LIKE THERS A MOTHERFUCKIMG FIRE UP TO YOUR FUCKING ROOM. WHAT THE FUCK KEL?!" He is now standing above me

"I'm s.. S.. Sorry. But.... I am underage. I can't buy you beer until November. And you know that"

"DON'T TELL ME WHAT I DO OR DON'T KNOW!!" Then he begins to kick me in the gut repeatedly. Once he stops he just walks over to the counter and grabs his keys, wallet, and jacket. I try as hard as I can to hold back the tears. If I show weakness I will get beat again.

"I'm getting beer. Be back in a sec" once he closes the door I begin to let the tears fall. I hear the car in the driveway start. I hope he gets pulled over. Then once I don't hear the car anymore I almost scream out in pain. You would think that because I get beat everyday I would at least get a little bit tougher. But no. It hurts the same. I crawl up the stairs into my bathroom. I steadily lift myself up and open the cabinet quickly so I don't see my reflection. I grave the Ibprophen, Aspirin, all the pain killers and take the right amount. Almost instantly the pain steadily goes away. I close the cabinet and look at myself. I see old and new bruises. They look coverable.

I walk to my room and put my headphones in. Black veil brides blasts through them and into my ears. It soothes me. I take out my books and try to study. If I get anything lower than a B then I get a beating. As if he really cares anyway. But I can't focus on studying. I was woken up to a beating. Went to school, me ex boyfriend of a month made a big scene telling everyone the only secretes he knows about me. Like that I'm a virgin. And I haven't kissed anyone before. And that I live in a crappy house ( he's only seen it from the street. I daren't let him or anyone in ). Just little crap. Then i broke up with him on the spot. The only reason I go to that fucking rich kids school is because of the money my dad gets from the government. I wish I didn't.

I hear his car pull up. The police are like fucking blind. I get up quickly and lock the door, pushing my dresser I front of it. Once he gets inside I don't hear him come upstairs. I quietly move the dresser again. And open the door. I walk down the stairs slowly.

"Umm. I have to go to work now. See you tonight." I say as he leaves the kitchen and sits on the couch with a six pack net to him.

He grunts and I leave the house. And I head on down to work. I work at Barnes and Noble. It's a block away. Same with school. Just in the opposite direction. So tonight's the night. How will I do it. I guess I'll just OD on my depressant pills and then drink some of my dads beer.

I put my headphones in and blast Black Veil Brides again. I think I will explain some stuff I didn't mention before. Firstly, Black Veil Brides is my lifeline, can't live without them. It's almost the only thing I listen too. Of corse I listen to other stuff. But just mainly BVB. Secondly, like any fan girl, I am in love with all of the band members. Andy especially. Lastly, BVB is doing a concert tomorrow night. I even heard that they have been in town for a couple days now. Wouldn't it be cool to run into one of them? But of corse my dad wouldn't ever let me go. As if we even have the money anyways.

I continue to walk down the street, the book store just up ahead. As I approach the story I see a crowd of girls and guys around this restaurant. I see flashes of light and some screams even. I wonder what's going on? I wonder if it's Jake, or Jinxx, or CC, or Ashley!? OR EVEN ANDY?! I get excited and begin walking that direction, when my boss walks outside.

"Hey? Kelly? Your late. Come on." So I turn around and head into work, glancing back at the restaurant with curiousness and wonder. And so I begin work.