The Forgotten Zoldylock (Hunter x Hunter)

Killua X Mirror X Guilt

Short Chapter

Killua sighed, he couldn't figure it out but something seemed to be missing. Like he forgot something, and it was haunting him, putting pressure on his chest, as if to punish him for forgetting.

Every time he looked into the mirror, just so much as glimpsed at his reflection, there seemed to be something whispering into his ear calling him a liar, sometimes it felt as though hands where choking him. It bothered him, sometimes marks really did appear on his neck but from what? He did not know and it was scaring the young assassin, creating a fear of mirrors.

Silva and Zeno seemed to notice these marks but paid no mind to it, thinking it was simply from training or a mission. Killua felt like his insides were rejecting him and his eye was throbbing painfully, he always felt that emotion, the whispers of betrayal in his ears.

It hurts. Stop let me go! No! NO! Nii-chan help! Someone help, ANYONE! Make them stop! SOMEONE! IT HURTS! He heard those words sometimes, a girl whose voice was familiar, but anytime he would try to remember the face would be hazy and he'd feel guilty like it was his own fault.

All this happened for 2 years, continuous agony filled nights, but no one seemed to notice his distress, I wonder if this is how she felt? But more... Killua blinked, he didn't recognize who the 'she' in his thoughts was, but something told him that he would regret something, but he didn't know what.

~When Kira escapes~

He felt something snap, he felt an overwhelming wave of anger and hatred coming from his source as he called it over time. ...No longer my brother. He heard inside his head ad strangely he felt heartbroken, this time it was his emotion.

~Time Skip~

"I love you!"

"Promise?"

"Ne~? Never forget me?"

"You're mine!"

Her voice was drowning all his other thoughts, his mind could only think of the girl.

"I love you too!"

"I promise!"

"I'll always remember you!"

"Because you're mine!"

His own voice, well, his younger self voice echoed through his head. He felt guilty.

"It hurts!"

"Help nii-chan!"

"Make them stop!"

"Someone help! ANYONE!"

Her voice in his mind, the pain filled shouts got to him. He couldn't shake the feeling of dread, the feeling of being scared. He clutched his head in absolute pain, he was shivering, he felt so cold. His body yearned for something; no someone. He was constantly unstable. His mind was being torn apart, yet he could not remember, no matter how hard he tried.

He wouldn't forget right?

He'll always remember right?

Why isn't he wearing it?!

He got bombarded with unknown thoughts again, these were among many that played in his head. Before he knew it, he had tears escaping his eyes.

It hurts.

Why am I hearing and seeing these things?

Who is she?! Why-!

Liar.

Interrupting his own thoughts, the females voice uttered this word in his head with an empty tone.

You forgot!

I don't need you anymore!

Why is it always you?!

Why am I the only one left out?!

Ah... Those thoughts again. Every now and then he'd get the hate filled screams in his head, burying his own thoughts six feet under. He flinched when he felt his heart pinch in undeniable guilt. Tears flowed faster, it hurt so much. Yet, although he didn't know, his twin, Kira, had felt triple the emotional and physical abuse.