Terrible Things - Mayday Parade One Shot

Part 4

I had then decided that I needed to devote every waking moment to your mother, and making her last few weeks the happiest she has ever had in her life. I quit the part time job I had, and I also stopped going to school. I put my life on hold, so I could put all of my attention to the most important person in my life. I had no time to grieve over the idea of losing the love of my life; I had to do whatever I could for her.

"Let's get married" I blurt out to her, still slightly shocked from the previous news.

She giggles through her tears, saying "I already said I would marry you, you goof."

"No, we need to get married right away, let us inform who we can that the wedding is being moved up to two days from now" I demanded, absolutely desperate for this to happen. I needed to marry her; I needed her to die happily in the arms of her loving husband.

The next two days were chaotic, getting everything in order. Not as many people could come as planned on account of the short notice, but we didn't care. All that mattered in that moment was you your mother, and I. We spent our spare time doing everything we could; we grew not only closer together, but closer to you. Your mother was very weak, but when she looked at you a spark went off in her, and I had never seen her smile so much. You were our angel, the sign that our love would not die even when we do.

The day of our wedding came, as I stood at the front of the church. I looked among the crowd, you sitting with my parents. As a smile came to my face watching you, the music started playing and my eyes immediately darted towards the back of the church. A white dress that fitted her so perfectly, showing every inch of her I was crazy about. The long brown hair that swept over her shoulders, down her back. She was never one to get her hair done, so I could tell from the very few times I had mesmerizingly watched her curl her beautiful hair, and I could tell today was one of the days she took the time to curl the hair that swept down her back, cascading into gentle curls. She walked in looing t the ground, but in a few steps her eyes were glued on me. Her bright blue eyes, as breath taking as they were the first day I spotted her sitting in the coffee. It was the same look she gave me as well, the one of curiosity and love, the look that made my heart and my life complete. I couldn't help myself as tears rolled down my cheeks and a huge smile spread upon my face, very soon reflected onto her face. That familiar smile, the one I saw every morning as she muttered 'good morning' without opening her eyes, while a huge smile spread onto her face. The one I saw when I proposed to her, the one I saw every time I spoke the words 'I love you" to her.

We spoke the words 'I do' to each other without hesitation, and kissed like it was going to be one of the last, which sadly is true. Your mother lasted 8 days after our wedding, and fought so hard to stay during those days. But you and I brought her joy as she struggled; she told me that we made the fight and all of the pain worth it. 8 days was all I had to officially call her my wife before she passed away, and my life shattered right in front of me.

Minutes before she died, I knew it was almost over and so did she. She pulled me in close, putting her lips against my ear.

"There are no words to describe how much you mean to me. You are everything to me, and although I am going to die, our love is everlasting. Through everything, we are going to last forever because I will always be in your heart; my love for you will never die. That day we met in the coffee shop, upon my first glance of you I wished that I would be able to love you for my entire life. Thanks to you, that wish came true. My life will end soon, but you have given me a life of happiness and unconditional, endless love that can't be broken. I love you with every inch of my heart"

Your mothers last words made me sob, but the next events made me cry harder than I ever had in my life, and ever have to this day.

Your mother's eyes closed, her grip on my hard weakened to nothing, and the machine beside her bed started to beep.

"No! I need more time! Please don't leave me" I started to raise my voice, shaking her hand and tightening my grip. Doctors started rushing into the room, but there was no way I could let go of her.

"Please don't do this! I love you! I wanted to love you forever! Please don't leave me!" I yelled, slowly giving up hope as I broke down beside her bed. One nurse came to pull me away but nothing could pull me away from the hand of the love of my life. I screamed as I felt my heart shatter in my chest. Every inch of my heart was being torn apart, giving me the most excruciating pain I have ever felt in my life. I lost all willpower to hold myself up as my body crumbled to the ground, except for the hand that was locked onto hers. I couldn't live without her; I thought that pain would never end. And it didn't.

When I saw your mother there in that coffee shop, I never would have expected that all this would come from that one smile, but I had sure hoped the love we had would happen. We struggled so much but at the end of the day we proved that love can conquer all. We were destined to be together, we were meant to be in each other's lives. When something is supposed to happen, it is effortless. With your mother and I, that was how it was, effortless. With her, I realized why it never worked with any other girl before that. As I was giving up hope on love because of all the girls that had walked out of my life, your mother walked into my life and showed me why nothing else worked. I was meant for greater things, and your mother was the greatest of them all. My love for her was permanent, and I would never stop loving her, even after I take my last breath.

*Present Time*

I sit there in my chair, smiling at the memory of her. I slowly change, tears start to pour from my eyes and I put my hands up to cover my face. Luke rushes to my side to check if I am alright. I assure I am and get up to get something to wipe my face with, as I pause mid-motion.

"Actually Luke, I am not okay." I say to my son. He comes over to my side as everything from the pat builds up inside me, every emotion coming back at once. I can't take it anymore; I can't be strong without the love of my life beside me holding onto me.

Slow, so slow

I fell to the ground, on my knees

"So don't fall in love, there's just too much to lose

If given the choice, then, I'm begging you, choose

To walk away, walk away, don't let her get you.

I can't bear to see the same happen to you.

Now son, I'm only telling you this...

...Because life, can do terrible things."