I wanna thank my baby for inspiring me to change, Jun Philip.
I also want to thank my ever supportive best friend, Tino.
'I am a greedy girl. I like you since then and i never intend to like you but somehow. You simply begulied me, i love you with all my heart.'
After a so called break up with my former so called boyfriend and now he is my bestfried, Trebor.
I met Trebor in University where i am taking up my degree. I am taking up Business administration, major in Business Management. While Trebor is a transferee from different prestigious University from a different state. He is taking up Accouning technology. He is my classmate in Accounting, He is very clever, good looking and a real gentlemen. And there is something beneath those chinky brown eyes of him, something Mysterious. He is totally my type. I like guys weird and at the same time clever, he is really smart. The way he talk, there is always some sense. I can't believe this. After years of behaving. Finally, my inner bitch glows.
After 2 days, he confronted me about something. Oh god! I am so excited, what about? My inner self goes drool. Maybe this cute korean looking guy likes me.
"I am bisexual." he said seriously.
I am surprised and disappointed to hear that he is bisexual. Then i said, " Really? Oh my god! I cant believe it. Really?" i said furiously.
Then he said "Yes, I am. And i have a boyfriend....." that's a big shocked to me then i put a fake smile.
Our so called relationship started that day. I agreed to pretend to be his girlfriend for 6 months, so that i can cover him up also to his parents that he is dating someone. Same sex relationship? They wouldnt agree about it, neither am i. At first, i find it very interesting... Very new to me. I think i can do this, plus i have a full access to him. I can make others think that he is my boyfriend, that confuses me. He is my boyfriend, and... Fuck it! I can change him, i can make him fall in love with me. Yea, that's right. I can do this. I can make him love me. I can make him straight.
Jeffrey, Trebor's boyfriend.
He is driving me home.
"Tal, i love him. I want to be with him. I can see myself growing old with him." Jeff said softly. I can sense his sincerity.
Yeaaahhhhhh righhhhhhhhht. I put a fake smile cause i am not really for it.
"Yea i think so. I can see that you both are crazy about each other. In the future. We'll see about that jeff. Besides, he is still studying. You know. You have to wait for the right time." i said truthfully.
"I know, i can take care of him. I can send him to school. And i am not getting younger. I need a partner , who can look out for me and can take care of me." he said sadly. I see where he is coming. But that's beyond impossible for Trebor. He is young and he still need to prove himself to his parents. See a little world perhaps.
"I know jeff. I know can exactly what you mean. Just ask him. You guys should talk."
After that conversation with Jeff, i told Trebor about the whole conversation. He is a bit overwhelmed at the same anxious about it. Bittersweet is his reaction. I am beyond grateful to his reaction, i wanna tell him that I'm still here. I think i love him already. I love him? I think so. I am doing things for him.
After few months, they broked up. Unexpectedly. Jeff and Trebor are done. I find amusing to find out that they are officially and legally seperated. It means more for me.
New GUY.
I can sense that he knows that i have feelings for him. My feelings are constant at the time. Until a girl showed up in nowhere. We found new acquitances that lead to his new ex-convict looking lover with tattoos. His name is Macoi. Macoi is an advertising student in university where we are currently studying also. He is all buffed and so manly looking kind of guy. But deep inside he is Gay. Fuck! This is disgusting and painful to me, at the same time.
