Torn (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Why me?

Age 4 Nicole-

I was playing with my barbies my momma had gotten me when I was 2. My daddy was watching naked ladies on the tv it was gross! I walked upstairs not saying a word. I felt unloved every single day and it all started last year when I was 3. -flashback-" daddy what are you doing?" I asked my dad while looking at a burning cigarette with a beer can in his hand. " I'm just doing what I was meant to do its all your fault that she is gone ur just a little bitch u know that I never loved u and never will now go the fuck away!" I walked away my small feet hitting the hard wood floor. - end of flashback-.

He just changed automatically and it wasnt even my fault my momma had died I didn't want her to die I would do anything for her to be here and just Rock me in her safe arms. I decided I would get into my pajamas even though it was 7:46 I did this every night because their was really nothing to do. I was about to put on my pajama shirt when I heard my door open then I felt 2 clammy hands around my waist I already new what was going to happen he had done this when my mom and him were drunk on New Years -flashback- I watched from the staircase as my dad picked up my mom and started bringing her up the stairs I ran up to my room and kept my door open a crack I watched as he mates her on the bed and was raping her and she didn't even try to stop him from that day on I had code names: chicken wings= boobs, onion rings= butt, biscuit=private, gravy= period blood, hotdog= penis( as my dad called it-Nicole) -end of flashback-

Yep he thrown me on the bed and raped me he even had a camcorder in the room I was crying so hard begging him to stop did he? Nope. Then he left me in their he even beat me. a little bit of my curly brown hair was ripped out I had a purple and black throbbing eye along with blood covered legs and it was my blood. I got in the shower I had learned by myself when I was 3 to control the shower switches. I got the blood off of my legs and got into my onesie it was spongebob. I walked into my moms room. My parents had separate rooms I don't even know why. I got on her laptop and made sure my dadd- wait Matt I will call him by his name since what he did was passed out he was. I had logged on to her Facebook and twitter just checking it their were things on their saying rip and all that. I needed a plan I need to get out of her before Matt try's again. I grabbed most of my moms stuff and most of my stuff and put it in a suitcase I also put all of the electronics in their along with the chargers. The last special gift I needed was my moms picture I grabbed that and then grabbed all black clothes. What I picked was my ninja Halloween costume I was one when I was 3. I got dressed and put on a jacket that said NINJA! With that I put on my sneakers I was ready to go. I grabbed the big money jar my mom was saving for all 3 if us to go to Disneyland. I grabbed junk food like cookies, cheetoes, soda, apples. Lets just say I grabbed everything.... Revenge haha. I walked out taking one last look at my home just taking in all of my memories except the one thing that happened not to long ago...getting raped. Then I thought about it was I ready to go?

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