Lost In Hell With An Angel

Chapter 7 Closer

POV "Shane"
Kelan let me stay for dinner, that was amazing, been close to him was great, he seem to like my gift and everything was going awesome, he gave me coke instead of whine an I didn't ask why.
He had cock some lasagne and he looked like he was celebrating something but I didn't want to ask, he just looked really happy and that was good thing.
In my inside I was totally sure he was mad at me, he didn't answer my calls or my texts, not a single email, so I went on and asked.

- Kelan are you mad at me for some reason?
- Why the question?
- Humm, well I call you for a few days, send texts and emails and didn't get a response from you...
- Listen kid, I didn't answer because I was busy, college, my job, and many other things are always in my day, is not that I'm mad or anything is just that I was to busy to attend you, plus you are not in my check list of every day schedule, you know.
- At least your not mad at me and that makes me happy... but can I ask you something else...
- Sure!
- Would you please not call me kid?
- But you are a kid.
- You are not that older than me, and we have ha done a few things that take that away.
- Will see if you earn that, that is if we keep seen each other which is something I don't plan on doing.

We ate dinner, I didn't fought against all he said, I would do my best to stay close to him, he had something, and after that kiss, after he touched me, after I saw him and felt his body, I was sure I wanted him in all ways posible.
He was cute, nice looking, he was smart, brilliant and had goals, he was a perfectionist and I was falling in love with this man.
I wasn't sure if I was gay but I was really sure of what I was feeling and my heart felt warm, I couldn't stop thinking about him, I always wanted to see him, I always wanted to hear his voice and I would give anything just to be by his side.

POV "Kelan"
Dinner went ok, I said a few things with the thought that he would fight me, but surprise, surprise he didn't, he just stare at me and smile like a little kid that has something plan already.
He did looked really cute..., yes he was in an apartment of an older man, well a few years than him, and he was looking at me like there was no life if I wasn't there, crazy I know. We finish dinner and as I put away the dishes in the sink to wash them later, we went to my living room.
I had a few questions and he was meant to leave soon, or so that was my desire, if he stay long enough I might lose my mind and that was not suppose to happen.

- So Shane, I see you are wearing a uniform and I guess you are in your last year of high school, right?
- Yeah, your a college student, right...?
- Of course... if not how would I have the job I have and get to my goals...
- Kelan you are amazing!
- Not really, please don't admire me, I'm not the right person you know...
- Why so...
- Well it's hard to explain...

He stare at me with a questioning look in his face, he looked so cute when he stare at me. I had to end this and make him leave, I didn't want for him to get his hopes up.

- Well Shane thanks for coming but I have things to do and I thinks it's time for you to leave.
- Oh ok, but please tell me that we will met again...
- I don't think that is a good idea...
- Why, because you don't want a relationship with me...
- Shane you don't get it, we shouldn't be close to each other your confuse and I can't handle this right now.
- So that means we can try it later on...
- No Shane, I have a plan and you are not in it, we are nothing, not a couple, not friends, nothing, so please leave my house...
- Kelan... I think I love you...

I was dhole to hear that, but that was not possible, he was crazy, he was just playing games with me, this kid must be obsessed or so that is what I thought, I had to give him an answer, one that he should take and that would make him leave alone. but what should I say, that is when it hit me and he had to go with that wether he liked it or not.

- Well kid I don't love you, and I can't do that, yes I haven't had the time for relationships, but my now editor has asked me out and I agree, he is nice guy, my age, likes what I do and he could be the right person for me...
- You are kidding right... you kissed me, you touched me, I know that you feel something for me like I feel for you...
- That was attraction just that nothing more, nothing less...
- It's not true, you are making a lie so I won't come back...

He looked like he was about to cry, but I had to keep this up, yes I felt something but, he was going to be a bump in my life, he would get tired and at the end he would leave me, I was not ready for that and I didn't want that to happen

- Listen Shane and look at me... I am not lying I am starting a relationship with some else and I can go out with you, plus you are to young, you don't know what you want, and I have a life plan, you are just about to start yours...
- Why are you doing this?
- You need to understand...

I saw his face an tears fall from his beautiful eyes, he stare at me, after that he just walk to my front door and left, I felt bad, sad, terrible but it was for his good and for my own as well.
The days went on and all I could do was think about Shane's face, all that was something I had to put in the past, I was sure he would not return and we would not see each other again.