To Sir With Love - Chapter 1

My Confession

So after a long amount of thought and consideration I have decided to carry on with this story, as long as people read it that is. The writing is slightly different as it has been quite a while since I started this story. Anyway enjoy!

"Hi it's me again. Listen I know that it is a hard thing to come to terms with but I am scared too you know. I can't do this by myself Minnesota, I need you. I need you to tell me that everything is going to be ok. Just call me when you get this message ok?"

It had been two days since Eric found out I was having his baby and to say he was shocked would be an understatement. The look in his eyes killled me and I don't think he will ever look at me again as he did before.

2 days ago

"Lux what did you just say?" Eric asked as he stared at me dumbfounded.

"Eric I..."

"Stop Lux", Eric interrupted me as he took a step forward, "are you pregnant?"

I didn't know what to say so I just stared at the man I love, secretly praying that the world would just swallow me up.

"Yes", I whispered under my breath.

Eric dropped his head to look at the floor, kicking the foot of his shoe onto thee floor. "How?" he asked still not looking up from the floor.

Did he actually just ask me that? "Well I'm not entirely sure; it could have been the time that we had sex in the shower before school, or the time Baze thought I was out for a run and we had sex on the backseats of your car. Or maybe it was..."

"That's not what I meant Lux, you know what I meant. You said you were on the pill, I thought we were safe".

The truth was that I had forgot to take the pill a few times, especially as I was dealing with Cate revealing she was pregnant at Thanksgiving. And I caught Emma and my Grandfather in an affectionate embrace. I was still stupid to forget though.

"I know I am so sorry I forgot I really am but I had loads to deal with. I am so sorry Eric..."

Eric took a step back and put his hands to his head, running his fingers through his hair. He looked lost which was unusual for him as he usually knew exactly what to say. I wanted to comfort him, even more, I wanted him to comfort me. I wanted him to hold me and tell me everything was going to be alright. That we were going to be alright. After what felt like an eternity he spoke, "so what are we going to do about this?"

"I don't know. It's not like I've ever done anything like this before. It's going to be hard with school and a baby but I think we could do it. I graduate in a few months and ..."

"Wait Lux", Eric interrupted me, "you want to keep the baby?"

How could he ask me that?! An abortion hadn't even crossed my mind, I don't think it's something I could go through.

"I'm sorry but I don't think I can get an abortion. I just can't deal with the idea of killing a baby or foetus or however you want to look at it. We could ..."

"...Put it up for adoption".

Now that was definitely the wrong thing to say. I scoffed and turned on my heel, slamming the door on the way out. I had just got out into the school parking lot when I felt someone grab my arm and turn me around.

"Ok maybe that wasn't the way that I could have approached that topic", Eric said still holding onto my arm.

"You think?!" I shouted at him, grateful that everyone had left school and the parking lot was empty. "After everything that happened to me being in the system you really think I could put another child through that? I don't want them to deal with a ... never mind. Adoption isn't happening."

He let go of my arm and looked into my eyes, "well that leaves abortion or ..."

"I want to keep the baby".

He looked down at the ground, "Lux how do you expect us to do that? I love you but you know what will happen if Cate and Baze find out about us. I could go to prison Lux. I could be put on a register for the rest of my life, that means I have to say goodbye to my teaching career. Imagine what people would say, would think, when they looked at us. Looked at you. I know what we have is real but other people don't know that. They will think it's disgusting and wrong."

I reached out and grabbed his hand, trying to get him to look at me. "I would make everyone see that what we have is right because it is. I want to be with you no matter what. I know that this baby makes things difficult but I don't care. I love you. So please, please, stay with me so we can be a family".

Eric looked up to me, "I wish it could be that simple I really do but it isn't. It would be best for us to just walk away from this and pretend it never happened. I'm sorry."

And that's what he did. Eric walked away and left me standing in the car park at school. My heart felt like it had been ripped out and I did the only thing I thought I could do, collapse on the floor and cry.

"Lux are you here?"

Cate had just got home after shopping for thanksgiving and hadn't suspected a thing about the baby. I made sure I did the pregnancy test in the bathroom in the pharmacy and discarded it there. I couldn't risk Cate of Baze getting their hands on it.

"Yeah I will be down now", I shouted to her as I slowly arose from the position on my bed. I straightened out my top and checked my makeup in the mirror in case it had smudged. I was wiping away some excess mascara when my phone started ringing.

"Hello".

"Hey".

My heart dropped into my stomach, "Eric I..."

"It's ok Eeyore. Everything's going to be ok. How about we have a baby?"

Sorry if it's not the best I am so overtired lately and looking after a 7 week old baby. Might edit the first chapter but definitely going to be working on the next chapter :) review and rate guys!