I was walking to the canteen with my friends,Mia,Lisa,Lola... They were always with me... But in my heart i knew that Mia hates me. She will do anything to make me suffer in life. Mia is ordinary. She is pretty but she is very rude. I am quite upset to have the saddest soul ever... During recess, all of us sat down on the canteen bench... Then we were talking and talking and laughing... Then suddenly Mia whisper to Lisa and Lola's ears. Then the three of them laugh at me. I wonder what were they talking about. Then suddenly Mia say this to me.
"NADIA SO UGLY AND FAT!!!!"insult Mia.
I tried to roll my eyes but... Hais,nevermind...
After that, i was quite hurt about those words they describe me... I decided to not look fat... Days & days,i decided to cut down my meals everyday... I starved as much as i can.. I don't care if my stomach hurts or whatever shits.My mother reprimand me to eat but i denied by saying this lies "Im full,mum.."
Few days later,my face become pale... I kept ignoring my mum... My dad dont even care:) Then i looked myself in the mirror and say this
"Omg,i look so ugly and fat! My thighs are bigger than my waist! What is wrong with me?!? WHY AM I FAT?!!!!!! My friends are all skinny:( but im not... WHY?!!!??" I whispered.
Few days later when i was on my way to school, i fainted. I was so weak. Many passer-bys saw me lying on the ground and called the ambulance... Few days after being hospitalised, i saw Mia,Lola,Lisa standing beside me. I only saw Lola and Lisa crying but Mia was laughing at me... I said this in my heart "Is she mad? If yes, she should be sent to the Mental Hospital,"
Maybe she thought that i was dying... EVERYONE WILL DIE. Then, i told the doctor that i want to go home!! But i can't :( I was so fucked up at that moment! After a few begs,they decided to sent me home..
"Thanks Goodness!" I sighed in relieved.
Once i reach home,i saw Mia's recent post on her instagram... She had taken my photo and this is what she write in her descriptions..
"I wonder when will she die? HAHAHAHHA maybe soon? Omg! hopefully! I don't want to see that ratchet ass anymore! starving to death for beauty? ahahhahah lol!!! Lame as fuck!"
I quickly throw my phone and bang my head at the wall... Blood flowing down my forehead. I quickly grabbed my razors and slash as deep as i could... I slash myself on my neck,thighs,stomach and my wrist... I was really depressed at that moment... I was confused. I was stuck in the room... I tried to commit suicide for about 5 times but failed:(
I eat pills to overdose,i slash, i drink, i hang myself... It all FAILED!
Now, me and Mia are frenemies... Friends but enemies... On our own ways now... Goodbye,Mia...
03-09-2015
