Poems in the Breaking.

Murder of faith.

I'm sick to my stomach in pain.
My chest is filled with broken pieces of what use to be a heart.
After all these years the situation remains unchanged.

I hate to write about how your words broke me down.
It happened, I'm feeling a death inside.
I try so hard but your not even around.

Everything seems so pointless now.
How much I love you and want to be your wife.
Moving away to a new town.

I feel like I'll never stop crying.
My skin burns from these annoying tears.
It really feels like I'm drowning.

I feel I gave up who I really am for the love of a man.
It was ok because soon we would be one.
Now that's just a maybe with no actual plan.

I'm so disappointed by my best friend.
I could never hurt you.
I will continue to let you pain me instead.

Today I'm forever crushed.
These pieces will take an unknown amount of time to fix.
I wish it was able with a kiss, hug or just your amazing touch.

It's beyond that though.
I don't feel like you would even bother to help me gain the faith.
I'm on my own once again with another of your blows.

This time it's much different.
You took away what I been dreaming of with you one day.
It already feels like we're at our end.

As much as I love you, as much as I miss you I don't know what to say.
I'm completely shattered.
How can you take this away?

I promised I'll never leave you and I never will.
But while I'm still showing you how much you mean to me I'll be in a world of devastation.
Hopefully you are madly in love too and can bring back what you have killed.

If you don't find the reason and care to try I know than it was a waste of my time.