A Story To Know Me

Summer Wasted

Well, okay since I failed all my classes and the TAXS test, you know the state test. So, anyways little did I know, the girls that bullied me where there. I literally said in my head, "What the fuck?". I had to ride the bus with them but luckily my safe spot was the front of the bus, and after summer school it was the back of the bus. One day at lunch I sat alone, one of the girls that bullied me came up to me and said, " Hey if you eat that jalapeño on your plate you can be my friend." Of course I was stupid and desperate for friends, so I did it. I couldn't take it, I threw up and drank water, everyone in that lunch room laughed at me and I was so embarrassed. A teacher came up to me and brought me to the counselors office. I talked to her and told her what happened, she said to me," Marissa, those are not your friends, those are bullies no one deserves those kind of friends, I will do something about this, if it happens again." "Okay, I'm sorry I did this I was just desperate for friends, this is my fault." I walked out. After the day ended I got on the bus and instead of sitting at the safe part of the bus I sat up front. The girls were teasing me and pushing me around on the bus and finally I couldn't take it. "Haha! I bet you can't do this haha!" As one of them waved their hand in front of my face. I slapped her hand, they all gasped in shock. "You did not just touch me! I'm gonna teach you a lesson you've never learned". She said. I responded saying," Your not the boss of me, so shut up!" My bus stopped at my house to drop me off, I ran out as soon as I could. I cried and my parents weren't home, they never came home until the next morning around like 3 or 4. But, yes at this point of life I would try, and try, and try, to commit suicide everyday I wrote notes, I have realized later on as I grew up life isn't all that bad.