Youre the most amazing child in the world. You never cry. Not once your such a good baby. You don't tell me when your awake you just lay there and sleep. Such a good baby, never crying or fussing. The only thing I don't understand is why you haven't moved. Not once have I seen you move, you must just be sleeping. I feed you . You don't cry when I pick you to give you the bottle or when I change you.
You don't eat. I put you back in the crib and walk away. I'm going to let you sleep. I'll change your clothes in a minute. I have to find the prettiest dress for my baby girl. I find the prettiest pink dress it has lace around the hem. This suits your pretty little face. I can't wait till you open your eyes and look at me. Your mother. The one who has been taking care of you.
I can't help but hold you. Your tiny hands and feet. Your perfect. I pick you up and hold you close I can't wait for you to wake up and look at me mabe even smile. I wait for someone to come over to visit but no one does. It's just me and you.
I hear someone at the door. Mabe their here to visit me and my baby! I run to the door and open it. No. No. No. They came to take me! They came to take me back to the hospital. No. I'm not leaving you or this house. I scream but you don't wake.
I run to the kitchen. Where is it. Where's my knife! I finally spot it and grab a hold it. I hold you in one arm and the knife in my free hand. I'm scared that they'll take you. I back into a corner and when the doctors come close I lash out.
I feel a sharp pain in my arm and soon realize that they had given me a sedative. The world starts to go dark and I sink to the ground. I'm sorry I couldn't keep us safe.
I wake up and start looking for you. Where's my baby? Where did they put you! I strugle to get up. I'm in a padded room with a straitjacket restricting my movement. I'm back in the hospital. And they took you away from me.
I can hear doctors out side my door. They say I escaped again. Then it all comes flooding back to me. I was in this room before because I had lost my baby and attacked someone. The baby I was holding wasn't mine. It was my neighbor's new born baby. She had only been a few days old and I snuck into your room and suffocated you with a pillow in the middle of the night and killed your parents. After I finish with your parents I took you and ran back to my house and locked the door. I put you in the bed and ignored the constant pain of loss.
I slowly went insane and thought you were my baby. You never cried never breathed or even opend your eyes. I was relieved to have a baby again and pushed the thought of you being dead into the back of my head not wanting to believe that it was true. Soon I was living in a world made purely of fantasy.
I never intended to end up where I am. I only wanted a baby for my own. I only wanted a little happiness. So I waited and waited and waited for you to wake up....
