Her Forgiven Insanity

Intro

A/N Okay so thats ^^^^^ Ckai! What do you think? 

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Have you ever wanted something to change? What if you lost everything at once, could you keep it together?

Well, my life has been nothing but hell since I moved to Arizona. Imagine everything you love being ripped away in seconds, and nothing you could do would stop it.

 My mom, my husband, and my unborn Twins.

 There were sirens everywhere, And I kept slipping in and out of consciousness. I didn't know the sex of the twins, until the paramedics told me. I had fraternal twins.

 I named them Breylin and Brianna. My husband Matthew had me in his arms, then I passed out and lost everything. 

Turns out while I was unconscious, a social worker took my kids. And not only that, but my Husband had a piece of large glass in his skull and died during removal surgery. 

The nurse was on the phone when I woke up, and looked distressed.

" Okay mam, I will let her know when she wakes up."

" Let me know what?" I ask shakily?

" Okay I have to go know, Ms. Jeffers is up."She said and set the phone down, turning to me.

" Ms. Jeffers, I am so sorry to inform you that you husband is no longer with us. Also, First Alert Medical just informed you that you mother had a heart attack while we were telling her about your accident. She did not survive. A case worker is waiting in the hall to speak with you, would you like me to send her in? "

" Yes mam, let her know of my condition please." I said softly.

As she walks in, I sit up and put my hair in a ponytail. Hopefully the information she is going to tell me is only temporarily.

"Ms. Jeffers, I am sorry to inform you that Breylin and Brianna are now a ward of the state, which means your rights to them have been terminated. There will be some paperwork, but that will be brought up later." she takes a large breath, a sad look on her face,.

"You will have no contact, pictures, or information about the twins. I am so sorry to have to be the one to tell you this."

And with that she walked out of the room.I lay back down, and in seconds I'm a heap of tears and tissue. 

My kids would never grow up to know their mother. They would never be able to hear me tell them that I love them. 

They would never be able to crawl in my bed when they have a bad dream.I fall asleep, thinking about what would have happened if I wasn't in that car.

~~~~~Six Hours Later~~~~~

I wake up, Screaming at something that wasn't there. I could have sworn that he was in my room, and that my kids were here. 

All of the blood, that was there too! He killed my mom. Took my kids. He left me. 

My husband was an out of control monster.

 Even though he was dead, he still managed to screw my life up.

I would never again let my guard down, not ever again.

Not until I have my kids back.

I lay down, the nightmare running through my head over and over again.

I have made up my decision. I will make a good life for my  kids, I will make everything like it was supposed to be.  

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ONE YEAR LATER

Its been a year since I left that hospital. Im living a good life with three interviews, no one could ever tell how f*cked up I was.

 I really want this one job at a major publishing company. It could change my whole life.  Ive done three years of college, and have all of the degrees to get the job. 

I dont want to be a chef or secretary for some underpaid law institute.

 Matt always told me I would make the best writer, and this job could help me see if that was true. Im looking to save money, for when I see my kids again. For the next thirteen years, I will work and make a life for me and my kids. 

I will never stop until im able to hold my kids in my arms, like I never got to. I want to be ready when I make that one phone call on the biggest day of my life.  

When I see if my kids want to be in my life. 

And I wont be able to stand it if they hate me. 

But, for now, I need to focus on my interview im walking into, because first impressions mean everything.