Life as a Lovato

Love by the Beach

Walking. That's all ive been doing for who knows how long. But on the Brightside I know where I am. My favorite beach, I found it when we first moved, Hampton Beach. I must've been walking a long time because driving takes about 45 minutes, and I can already see the sun rising. It was absolutely breathtaking. I could watch that every day, I could live here. It's so relaxing with the sound of the waves crashing onto shore, or the mere silence where the water is so calm. For those few minutes that I got to watch the sun rise from where it fell, it felt like I was in this parallel universe and all the world's problems were microscopic, almost nonexistent.

As perfect as this is, there is one person who would make it 1000x better, Mariah. I've been denying it for a long time but my feelings for her have grown dramatically, it's quite terrifying. Every time I see her, a goofy smile forms on my face and I get this weird but good feeling in my stomach. Every time she smiles my heart goes crazy. When she walks by me in the halls I can smell her perfume and it smells amazing. Like strawberries and roses, as creepy as that sounds...ugh why did I have to fuck up? Why do I always have to fuck things up?

I was drawn out of my thoughts by a loud rumble. 'What the fuck?' I thought to myself. Then I heard it again, I looked down at my stomach. "Oh, there's a rumbly in my tumbly" I giggled to myself. Well I had no money and I didn't know anyone around, so I guess I'm not eating today. Eg, it's been two days since I've eaten, one more won't hurt. But then again, I don't really know how long I'm gonna be here and I don't want to go home any time soon. Welp I didn't really think this one through. Fuck.

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I don't know the time, or the day, but the hunger subsided and now I'm just sitting in the sand watching the waves crash onto the shore. As relaxing as it was, I'm hella bored. I looked around, maybe it was already Monday cause there was no one, although it could also be because it is November, but either way I am not complaining. I just continued to watch the water. It looks so soothing, like being a part of it, all the negativity, the problems, would be drowned. I wanna go in. I'm going in.

I took my shirt off and my toned stomach was slapped with the frigid air. Goosebumps instantly covered my body. I then continued to take my sweatpants off and it suddenly got a lot colder. "Well no shit" I stated to myself out loud. I was left in my underwear and sports bra. There's no turning back now.

I ran for the water and as soon as it came in contact with my feet, it was like a double layer of goosebumps covered me. Fuck this was freezing. 'Don't be a pussy, don't be a pussy' I told myself over and over. "Well I mean you are what you eat, amirite ladies" I comment cockily winking. And I wonder why I'm single. I slowly walked deeper, and with every step the water rose higher and higher up my body, numbing what has already been taken over. I got about waist deep and everything was completely numb, I kinda liked it. Without thinking I dived into the oncoming wave, I felt like a mermaid, I felt free, like I've just been released into a whole new world. I came back to the surface, and as my head came out of the water, I slicked my hair back and could feel the water running down my back as if I just released out everything that was wrong with me. When I stood up again everything became fucking ice cold, I started shaking rapidly.

I made my way back to my warmish clothes, which was a lot harder than you'd expect because I couldn't feel my legs so I kept stumbling around. After what felt like a lifetime, I made it to shore and started making my way to my stuff. I looked up to the direction of my stuff and could see a figure in the same spot, it kinda looked like a person, but I was too far away to know for sure. Why would there be someone here, with my stuff? It must be the freezing water causing hallucinations. As I got closer I could definitely make out that it was a girl, she was just staring off into the distance, she didn't even realize I was approaching her. I got about 3 feet away and could finally see their face, she looked up at me and oh my fucking god. What the hell is she doing here? My eyes widened and my heart started pounding, I swear if you could take my pulse right now it would hit you like a sledgehammer and knock you into next Tuesday.