Crazy In Love

Crazy in Love: Part Two: Infinity

My phone bussed quietly in my pocket.

I opened my eyes slowly. The sunlight bathed my skin as I lay on my side. I tried closing my eyes to fall back to rest. What had happened yesterday was something I didn't want to deal with today. Thoughts bit at my brain, forbidding me to go back to sleep. I looked around me and saw Travis sleeping at the end of my bed. Our clothes had been thrown across my room and onto the floor. I was now in his oversized t-shirt and my panties. Most nights we spent together ended like this. No sex, just us laying peacefully next to each other.

I tried to imagine him with tears streaming across his face like last night, but couldn't, the lines of sadness had smoothed and virtually disappeared. His breathing slowed, deep and relaxing. He was so beautiful, i'd hate to wake him.

"Get up, it's time for school." My mom yelled at us through the door, god dammit mom.

I watched him stretch to one side and open his beautiful green eyes only to see me staring at him. He smiled.

He glided across the floor and into the bathroom, his boxers were worn dangerously low across his hips. He left the door open while he brushed his teeth, and I spread my body across the bed. We exchanged a few looks in the bathroom mirror and I couldn't stop smiling.

What I didn't enjoy was that didn't say much that morning. Even though I sat next to him all day while happiness leaked out of my body, I was still screaming inside.

But I could only take so much. At lunch I completely lost it when he told our friends that he was leaving for the summer. It killed me to know that he was lying to everyone, just like he lied to me.

"I need to use the restroom." I held in the tears a moment longer, until I was away from everyone.

And when I stepped out of that cafeteria, I ran until I couldn't breathe. I ran until I was three blocks away from the entire school campus. I could see Travis's house up ahead and I told myself that I'd just wait for him there. I stopped crying and wiped the tears away. As soon as I stepped onto his lawn, I thought about the past two years we'd spent together and how it was all being thrown away. The first time he had gone, he'd been there for four years. And it only made him worse. Who knows how long i'll have to wait to see him again. I missed him even when he was with me, how could I stay that strong for so long? I fell to the lawn and let my thoughts consume me.

After school, Travis caught up with me and hugged me, which made me feel a lot better.

"I'm leaving early in the morning, will you stay the night with me?"

"Of course I will."

To pass time we did stupid, cute-couple things. He cuddled with me in his bed while we watched old t.v shows and laughed like children. We played games and ate ice cream from the box. We spent hours just holding each other saying "remember when." I wish I could make that day last forever.

And when night time fell we looked into each others eyes and knew that in the morning he would be gone. He pulled me towards him, and I instantly felt the warmth of our bodies against one another. I felt his hands grazing, oh so gently, along my thigh, his warm hand against the bare skin underneath my clothes. His hands explored my back and sides, while my hands were pressed up against his chest.

We continued kissing when Travis stretched his fingers under my soft cotton blouse. He pulled it over my head, then slowly removed his own t-shirt. I arched my back slightly as his lips delicately caressed my stomach. His chest was soft, and slightly tanned from the sun. Travis wasn't the type to have bulging biceps, but he was perfectly toned, with a strong hold of me. Things became more intense and hot with our sweaty bodies pressed against each other, and we became one person.

I saw Travis leaning over me. I looked up into his eyes, unable to move. Frozen to his command. He put both hands under my neck and kissed my lips softly, laying me back to rest.

I moaned and rolled over in the smell of his cologne in the sheets. My eyelids opened and then closed to the shock of the morning sun. I yawned, and then I managed to fully open both eyes. I lay calm in his bed feeling the warm silk press up against my bare body. I looked around and saw a note on the pillow.

"I love you with all my heart and soul. ∞ -T."

My chest swarmed with pain as I read that one line. He was gone.