All Is Said And Done Book 2

Resentment

Zendaya's POV

It's over. I went to the studio and started singing. That's the only way I can relieve this stress without punching him in the face.

Me-(singing) I wish I could believe you
Then I'll be alright
But now everything you told me
Really don't apply
To the way I feel inside
Loving you was easy
Once upon a time
But now my suspicions of you
Have multiplied
And it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forgive this
But I'm much too full of resentment
Just can't seem to get over
The way you hurt me
Don't know how you gave another
Who didn't mean a thing, no
The very thing you gave to me

I thought I could forgive you
And I know you've changed
As much as I wanna trust you
I know it ain't the same
And it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I haven't tried to forgive this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I may never understand why
I'm doing the best that I can
I tried and I tried to forgive this
But I'm much too full of resentment

I always remember feelin'
Like I was no good
Like I couldn't do it for you
Like your mistress could
And it's all because you lied

Loved you more than ever
More than my own life
The best part of me I gave you
It was sacrificed
And it's all because you lied

I only give you a hard time
'Cause I can't go on and pretend like
I tried and I tried to forgive this
But I'm much too damn full of resentment

I know she was attractive
But I was here first
Been riding with you for 2 years
Why did I deserve
To be treated this way by you
I know you're probably thinking
What's up with Z
I've been crying for too long
What did you do to me
I used to be so strong
Now you took my soul
I'm crying
Can't stop crying
Can't stop crying
You could've told me
You wasn't happy
I know you didn't want to hurt me
Look at what you've done to me now
I gotta look at her in her eyes
And see she's had half of me
You lied
How could you lie
You lied

Isaiah-(walks in) I knew you would be here (sits on the couch)

Me-Yup. (Walks out of the booth and sits facing him) Just singing. Getting my mind off of everything

Isaiah-I'm sorry Z.

Me-Why are you sorry? It's my fault for not paying attention.

Isaiah-It isn't your fault. He's stupid for cheating on you.

Me-Tell me why it doesn't feel like that. I told myself that I wouldn't let the same thing happen again. I wouldn't get cheated on again, but it happened. (shaking my head) It happened again

Isaiah-This wasn't something you could really prevent. You were trying to see the good side of the situation and you can't help that. It's apart of your personality

Me-Something I wish I could change

Isaiah-But that's what makes you Zendaya. The fact that you can see the good in everybody, but could still put someone in their place if needed.

Me-It's crazy to me because Andre comes back in to my life and I stay distance from him out of respect for our relationship. Yet he goes out and does it

Isaiah-The fame and success is getting to his head. Now that he's successful, he thinks that he can do whatever he wants. He can't handle that girls are now throwing themselves at him.

Me-(nodding)

Isaiah-Don't get yourself down. Maybe this is a sign that something better is headed your way.

Me-You think so

Isaiah-Yea. After I found out that Jennifer cheated, I took sometime to find myself. Around that time Ariana came back and now we are happy together. Just take this time to focus on MXZ, college, and you. Don't worry about anything else. Make sure you are good first.

Me-Thanks Sai. What happened after I left

Isaiah-Well, Miami went off because he said that the house was his and that he has to move out by tomorrow, then Xaniya had a word in. Then the guys talked to him. I just left to come find you to make sure you were good.

Me-Oh.

Isaiah-What are you going to do tonight because he is going to be there

Me-You'll see. He wants to act a fool. I'll show him who the fool is.

Isaiah-Don't go to jail

Me-I won't.

Isaiah-You aight now?

Me-Yea. Love you bro

Isaiah-Love you too sis (kisses her forehead)

The House

Isaiah went and got food and went back to the house. Ray wasn't there, what a surprise. Note the sarcasm. I went down in the basement and I looked at my phone and saw that I had a couple texts from Miami and Xaniya.

MiamiMonae: You okay girl...I told him he has to leave tomorrow 😊

XaniyaSierra:Dont stress over him at all. We all still love you

ZendayaMaree:Basement now.

MiamiMonae:Coming!!!
(End of convo)

It was silent then I heard both of them running down the steps. Both of them jumped on me acting like the didn't see me like 3 hours ago.

Me-Yall can get off me now (laughs)

Miami-How are you feeling

Me-Better than a few hours ago. Me and Isaiah had a talk and he told me that I don't need to be crying over a guy that doesn't seem care about me.

Miami-True.

Xaniya-So what are you going to do now?

Me-Move on. Focus on us and our music and finishing college. When I'm ready I will date again

Miami-Are you going to talk to Andre

Me-Maybe just a friendship. I'm not going to go any farther than that unless I truly feel like he won't do the same thing to me again. But at the moment just a friendship.

Xaniya-Completely understandable. I'm glad this is all over now and we finally got to the truth

Me-Me too, but I'm not mad at Lani.

Miami-Wha?!

Xaniya-Miami

Me-She didn't do anything. She looked like she honestly didn't know he was in a relationship

Miami-But it was public

Xaniya-Not everybody knows who we are Mimi. And he probably said that the relationship was only for show

Miami-True. Maybe we can talk to her and see her side of everything

Me-Miami Monae is being reasonable for once. It's the end of the world

Xaniya-Somebody call my mama

Miami-Shut up.

Me-I'm about to go in my room and chill out.

Miami-Get some rest and we have some interviews tomorrow.

Xaniya-Hopefully Ray will be on time.

Me-Not my problem anymore.

Miami-Go ahead girl.