My special friend

Strange dream

I feel light like a feather and I'm floating through a field of beautiful golden wheat. That seems to last miles and miles away never finding how it began or when it ends and it feels like the wind under my fingertips. The wheats so soft like a cats tail. My brown, long, curly hair softly caress my face and shoulders touching my strapless white dress that lossens right above my curvy hips and sways in the magical wind. Letting my fingertips travel down from the curve of my throat to the dress, wow its so soft and silky and it ends just above my knees. Its golden color shining from the root to the tip swaying in the soft wind slowly and clamly. As the sun softly warms my cheeks and heart, it feels so peaceful like if happiness was slowly blooming in my chest. I start running through the beautiful golden field running my fingertips along its very very soft cat tail. Running and running I enjoy every second of it, finally feeling something I never thought I would feel in reality, hope. I would have laughed at the thought because I was taught my whole life that hope and happiness didn't exist but just greedy and selfishness, but now it brought a smile to my face.
BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! In a distant part of the field I hear like a wounded bird so I start running in its direction trying to find in what ever problem it may be. "YOUR USLESS." What? No, who was that? "YOUR USLESS." whispered a dark voice seductively.
"USLESS!"
"UNCLEAN!"
"FITHLY!"
"WORTHLESS!"
"USLESS!"
Pushing my plans against my ears to block out those words even though it was useless. They just kept coming louder and cruler. "No! No! Nooo!" My knees felt weak that they started trembling and shaking. Sinking to the ground where the wheat wasn't clean, golden or beautiful. But just a field of filth and dirt with no sun, just darkness. "USELESS!" "UNCLEAN!" "FITHLY!" "WORTHLESS!" "USELESS!" repeating over and over I cruled up in a ball on the dead wheat my hair covering my face as tears blurred my vision.
BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! rang the alarm next to my bed I slammed my hand on it so it would shut up. Half awake half asleep I rolled over mummbling unintelligent words. I felt a tear roll over my nose and wet my very thin and very short blanky. "Wow winters here uh?" I said asking my sister, Sara, since we sleep in the same room. "Shhhhhh!" "Come on lazy its school and its Friday!" I screamed excitedly winter was my favorite time of the year and snow is the most beautiful thing. Its like a white soft blanket covering the earth. "Come onnnnnn." I cooed as I poked at her cheek mischievously. Each time doing it harder until it felt like I was gonna knock her teeth in. Then hearing a strange cracking noise like bone against bone and my finger going deeper in her month than I expected "ANDREA STOP YOUR HURTING ME!"jumping out of bed she rushed to the bathroom. Laying there in shock I slowly put one foot at a time on the ground, got up and went to see what happened. Peaking from the door I saw blood oozing from her month to the sink like saliva. She poured water in her month then spitting it in the sink but it always come out more red than clear. Instantly feeling guilty "I'm...I'm..sorry." I said in a quiet voice my head peaking up once in a while. Quickly cleaning what was left of the blood from the sink. Her mad and angry face masking her pity. Knowing since she left to middle school and joined the basketball team left me at my brothers wrath and mercy which I doubt he has. "Its fine just don't touch me when you try to wake me up, ok?" Nodding my head enthusiastically I skip to the room and quickly change. Hmmm let's see going for jeans" Pinkshirk! Oh and my pretty white and pink jordans! Yayyyy! Brushing my hair to do pigtails which ends up looking slanted (one higher than the other)but whatever I look adorable! Checking in the mirror I start doing ridiculous poses sticking out my butt trying to ignore the bruises on my neck. "What are u doing?" Distracting me from my bitter thoughts, Sara asks has she gets in the room with a towl over her hair and another covering her body. "Ummm u know since I'm sexxyaaa!" "Omg you are so werid." Ok that kept me quiet. Weird? Why? I'm like everyone else.....normal? "USELESS!" screamed the voice in my mind I start posing again ignoring the voice and my sisters nakedness. Winking, well atimiting to wink, jumping from the bed posing in mid air. "You hungry?" Asked Sara. "Yup!" Giving me a challenging look she took off racing to the kitchen. Oh bring it on. Sprinting after her I passed her in no more than 3seconds. "Mahahaa! Beat y'all!" Getting the bowls and spoons my sis got the cereal from the top shelf and got fruity pebbles, my favorite(still is). After eating our cereal in silence. Its 6:30am, Sara's bus stop. 30 more minutes for my bus stop which is at 7:00am."Bye!" Yelled Sara rushing to put her bowl in the sink. "Byeeeee!" I called behind her. Catching a glance at Enrique as he passed by, his eyes dark and demonic as ever, sent a shiver down my spine. Even though they rode the bus together she never got hit by Enrique, only when she would defend me from his punches. For some reason he seem to love her more than me I don't know why but that's how it was. I found pictures of them when Sara was just a few months old and Enrique still a enfant, he would hold her and take care of her like a brother not a monster. The way he looked at her full of wonder and love. A loud engine noise brought me back to my senses. Startled OMG its 7:04am damn time went fast, too fast! Snatching my backpack I sprinted out the door not bothering to kiss my mom goodbye. Luckily the bus hadn't passed but a green truck with the words 'Worldwide trash' stamped on the sides. Relief filled my chest and a little annoyance. "Heyyyy!" waved Jr he's a short, chicken legged, skinny, pale skin, and dark brown hair and eyes. "Heyyy!" I screamed back. "Yayyy 1 more week and it's winter break!" He says when I get into non~screaming distance next to him. Omg he's literally jumping up and down and I can't help but giggle. "I know right! I can't wait for the snow to fall." Throwing myself on the wettish ground careful to not to break a neck I'm giggling like crazy and start mimicking a snowangel he giggles with me. Wow he has a nice giggle, he throws himself on the ground following my lead. We stay there for a while when the bus finally comes. Quickly jumping on my feet I break in a run but clumsily slip and fall on my face. Getting up ice burned on my face and hands, Jr is climbing the steps I notice a wet stain on his butt "Umm *laughs* looks like you just peeped on yourself." He's still for a moment then rushes to our seat, in the middle of the bus, flushed by my comment I laugh as I sit next to him and the whole ride is quiet.

*time skip to recess*
Slowly swinging on the swings I stare at my knotted fingers hearing multiple conversations trying to learn the "cool talk". I don't know why they think I'm weird I try to fit in, but it would always end up in a humiliation. Paying attention to the most popular girls in school. The main one being Mackenzie (main one/meaniest), her hair is straight, long, dark brown, fair skin, and a body that screams "I work out everyday in my dance studio, that only my daddy can afford!" I don't know how many times shes bragged about it but the boys act like their memory goes missing and they're just a group of smirking drooling idiots. Caroline (mean), has carrot hair that waves around her chest about~to~be boobs, flawless skin with a few freckles, and all legs. And like in every group of popular girls the dumb one Samantha (dumb asf), is like the fat version of Alison from pretty little lairs. Deep in conversation about their new cloths from justice they flipped their hair back and forth under the money bars in a distant, boys drooled at their glorious sight. Wow how can they do that? Pain shooting through my chest. Well.....brusises aren't attractive to guys and when they ask about them I don't know what to say, its like my touge is glued to my throat. I have golddish skin, dark brown curly hair that reaches my lower back, large pitch black eyes, slender body, and full pinkish lips. I awkwardly practice how to whip my hair in the corner of my eye I see a group of people staring at me murmering not breaking eye contact ignoring them I turn my focus on Mackenzie and her crew feeling my cheeks redden from embarrassment. Ok here goes nothing before I can sit down I march toward the popular girls my courage slowly dieing down as their conversation stops immediately. We are just staring face to face Samantha's in her usually I don't have a glue what's going on face, Caroline's a little like WTF are u doing here with one eyebrow raised, then Mackenzies emotionless face putting one hand on her hip. Oh god! This is not what I expected. Ok.ok.ok.ok. Feeling a sweat go down my spine I try to flip my hair but stupidly end up slapping myself. The laughter of the girls burned even more than the slap on my cheeks, that I'm sure will leave a mark. Pointing at me they circled "Oh my gosh you retarded, freak, werido and...and ummm omg your so uncool...." Samantha looking around eyes wide like if she was unsure what else to say, but Caroline beat her to it. "Why don't you make friends with the bugs they're just like you!" Mocking laughter came from multiple people watching around us. Why? Why don't other people help? The knife.....the knife is in my chest peircing and pericing so so sweetly and painfully its...so...soo suffocating I dont know when's it gonna stop, then the knots in my stomach start to form twisting and twisting tempting me to vomit and I'm stuck between two options sit down and cry or lunge myself at her and grab her neck and tighten it under my fingers. Something chokes my throat as pitch black eyes stare at me, peircing into my soul. NO ITS ENRIQUE! NO! I'LL RATHER DIE THAN TO BECOME LIKE HIM! Looking down at my feet wide eyes I feel like a tiny bug and a million people stepping on me feeling

weak.

useless.

and hopeless.
As I'm about to turn and leave to my special and very lonely place. "Hey!" knitting my eyebrows together I trun in confusion seeing its Mackenzie "would u like to join our group?"