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My sad ending

Me: I'm over it all, all this shit is just too much, I'm in the bathroom with a bottle of pills and scissors, I open the bottle and take the remaining pills inside, shakily I grab the scissors and slowly drag them across my skin, blood trickling out of the cuts, one cut, two cuts, then another and another, the scissors drop from my hand, as I fall to the cold bathroom floor, I hear the door unlock and my parents rush in, my mother's holding me, whilst my father calls the ambulance, I can feel my mother's tears run onto my tear-stained face. The darkness starts to enclose around me, this is what I wanted, this is finally happening, I'm now welcoming death.

Mother: I hear the sirens of the ambulance, I watch them take my baby girl away, we follow behind the ambulance, we finally arrive at the hospital, she's lost a lot of blood the place looks like a murder scene.

Father: After a couple of long, tiring, tortuous hours, I look up to see the doctor walking over with a sour face and says "Sorry for the words, I'm about to say I'm sorry for your loss, I'll let you be now" he walks away with his head hung low.

Mother: I can't hold it in any longer my baby girl is gone now forever, I can't believe I didn't notice sooner, my baby girl was trying to tell me all the troubles she was having, but I was always too busy to listen.

Me: I can see them, I see my mother weeping into my fathers shoulder, trying to hold in the fact that they just lost their baby daughter. It's all over for me, but can't they see I'm finally happy.

Father: I have to hold my tears in, I have to be strong for my wife, I know I just lost my little girl but I have to keep moving on, I wished I listened sooner, I wish I spent more time with her, I never should have brushed her off. What is wrong with me I just hope she can see me, see how sorry I am.

Me: I watch them go home, I watch them go into my bedroom and see the note on my pillow.

Mother: We go home, go up into her room, and find a note upon her pillow, I pick it up carefully and unfold it with care and read it aloud for my husband to hear. "Dear mum and dad, I wish it didn't come to this but it did so I'll just say this, I love you both so very much, I hope you can forgive me for what I've done. You thought you had an angel, did it ever occur that your angel was fighting unseen demons and those demons won the fight. So I'm so very sorry it came to this I'm running out of room to write, yes I gave up the fight, but you'll make it through the night, just hug your pillow tighter, I send my love down from above. Goodbye and Good luck, Your daughter."

I broke down I just lost the most beautiful and precious thing to me.

Father: I arranged the funeral, It was so hard to do, thinking of putting my little girl in a coffin in the ground.

Mother: The whole town came and all I could hear were the sobs coming from her friends and the wind rustling the autumn leaves. It started to rain, perfect weather for a ruined day.

Me: It's amazing when you're dead how people start listening. I imagined what it would be like if I was still alive, But then I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now, I hope my mother and father understand why I did this I had to stop the pain, that came from inside.