Love
"Mom." I said looking at her in disbelief.
She looked down and started to cry. She walked towards me but I moved back. "Love.. I'm sorry." She begged.
"I don't care stay away from me." I said. I didn't want her to even look at me, I've honestly still hated my mother, the nights where I had nightmares of her beating me. I can't see her just yet. Not now.
"Why? I miss you Love. Look at you a beautiful young woman, pregnant, graduated, and now getting married. All I wanted to do is here your voice baby." By her sincere voice I knew she wasn't drunk like always.
".... Just don't give me that pity act ma." I knew she must have wanted something. "But I love you too.. Now bye."
"NO. LOVE I need you. I want you back home with me. Not here with your father." She said.
"No I'm not living with him any more. I live with my fiance, I'm grown. You just can't take me back like a damn dog ma. Honestly fuck you, you ruined my life. All you do is used me for your self glory, Ma I don't want to ever see you again. Stay the hell away from me. You're worthless." I started to cry. I never wanted to talk to her like I did, but she just can't take me, I'm 18, I make my own decisions.
"Well Love if thats how you feel then.... Yea, you're right, I ain't shit. I'm sorry I even came. A week after you lefted, I've been clean from alcohol. I wanted to show you my new self, my grand child and new soon to be son-in-law too. Well Love you don't have to go home, can we just spend time together. I have an apartment here and I wanted you to come over sometime. Can we do that?"
"Yeah we all can." Rodney said. "I'm Rodney, your soon to be son-in-law." They laughed. He walked up to her and hugged her. "Here put your number in, we'll be over there later." He walked over to me and wiped my tears while grabbing a napkin and handing it to my mother. She put her number in. "Ok we'll call you later. Oh her hold up." He jogged to the car and handed her an ultrasound picture of Jr.. She had a surprised looked on her face and cried tears of joy.
I couldn't fight on with holding this grudge and walked up to her. I hugged and kissed her on the cheek and we cried together. "I love you Love."
I smiled. "I love you too, well be over later ok." She shooked her head and we left.
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Rodney
We drove in silence back to the house. I looked over at Love who was just staring out the window, I lifted my hand and caressed her beautiful hair. She turned her head and she had a face full of tears.
I pulled into the garage. And walked over to her door, and carried her in the house and sat on the couch with her. "Baby whats wrong?" I softly said. She shooked her head from side to side. "Come on tell me."
She opened her mouth then closed it. "Nothin I jus wanna go to bed." She pushed from my grip and walked upstairs, I heard her weeping. I sat there for a moment and gathered my thoughts. To be honest, I always thought Love never had a mother, she never talked her up, I knew her mother hurt or probably screwed her over. I really didn't have a place in her position because my mother and father has always been there.
I walked upstairs into my gloomy room and walked to the bed. I took my shoes, shirt, and pants off and layed up with Love. She was had on her panties and bra on while her pregnancy bump was exposed. I kissed her on her forehead. I felt a tear hit my arm. "Come on talk to me Love ok, this is not healthy for you or the baby. I mean do you still wanna go over to yo mom's, baby we don't have to baby."
She shook her head up and down. "I'm just thinkin about what she did to me. It really hurts me that the person who was suppose to give you unconditional love, beats and emotionally kills you. Thats suppose to be my mom and all she was, was my enemy. Baby and it slowly killed my childhood. I'm happy, only on the outside, but deep down I'm broken and torn down."
