"Different Concenquences" (NH & 1D fanfic.)

Chapter 04

A/N: WARNING!
(BAD WORDS AND SWEARING CONTENT. PLEASE DO READ IT WITH YOUR OWN STATE. WITH YOUR PATIENCE, THANK YOU :) )

#pardon xxx

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"Good morning." Perrie's voice rang to my ears. Its morning?!

I groaned lightly, turning around and opening my eyes, blinking them lightly to shake the sleepiness off.

"I just noticed, you suddenly disappeared from nowhere last night, you're not in the pool, you're not in the-- Jesus! What happened to you? You looked.. Puffy" she spoke.

I can feel my eyes were probably puffy and red from crying myself to sleep last night. Why would she care?

"Why would you care?" I mumbled, getting off of the bed.
"Excuse me?" She asked, shocked. I just ignored her, pulling my luggage under the the bed.

"What are you doing?" She asked.
"Leaving." I mumbled quietly.
"What? Why?" She asked, confused.

"I'm going away from all of you." I said, stuffing my clothes in, tucking them.

"You can't just leave here--"
"Yes I can! I have my ticket and I've made a descicion, and I'm leaving this fucking hell!" I growled, waving my hands in the air.

"W-what has gotten into you?" She asked, stuttering and disappointed.

"Oh you know what it was! And obviously, you didn't care!" I yelled.

"Ugh, get over him already, Cass, and I DO care!" She groaned.

"How?! Were you there when I'm being bullied? Were you there when I won on a contest? Were you there in the end of my school years to support me? Were you there in my darkest nights? When I'm weak? When I'm broken? Exactly. And Niall with his bullshit is only making it worse!" Now softly crying.

"Cass, I'm sure he didn't mean it-"
"Didn't mean it? What? Do you think it accidentally happened when he supposed to hate me? Calling me names? Speaking about my insecurities? For no goddamn reason?" I spoke.

"I always end up breaking down, and it felt like I'm worthless" I mumbled quietly, continuing my packing.

"I-i'm sorry, Cass. I.. I didn't know your weaknesses" she spoke, now sobbing.

"I don't know, Perrie. You weren't helping me at all. Do you think calling, texting or skyping were helping? No. And I'm sick and tired of it! I'm always jealous of you, happily having fun with the girls with your freedom while out with your career. I was so happy when you decided to bring me up with you, but didn't expecting someone to hate on me" I paused.

"Wasn't I enough? My personality? My Behavior? What did I do wrong?" I said. Breathing out.

She just stared, watching me to finish it all up. She was crying as well, it hurts seeing her hurt and crying because if me. What would I do? It wasn't my fault and I had to speak the truth. Yes, she is my sister, but its all taking it too far.

Just when I finished, I got dressed into my jeans back and a sweat shirt that I just grabbed from nowhere. I put my uggs on. I don't care if I looked puffy or messy, I don't have the time of dressing up casually right now.

I stepped out of the bathroom and perrie looked up at me with pleasing eyes. As long as she put that up, I'm not going to stay here with your pleasing.