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Wishes

birthday candles, 11:11s, dandelions, fountains, wells...

i make wishes on anything i can.

i have wished for many things.

like, when i was little, i wished

for a majestic pony,

to be a glittering mermaid princess,

to have get a tiny little rabbit,

and to grow up faster.

when i was a bit older,

i wished

to fit in,

to be noticed by boys,

to grow taller (or fuller),

and to be invited to parties.

now?

now i still wish for some of these petty frivolities.

and things like

money,

friends,

time alone,

happiness.

i like to wish because, to me, it feels like magic.

it's as if i have control over things i have none over.

i know the chances of my wishes coming true are next to nothing,

and the chances of those wishes coming true solely because i wished for it to is even slimmer.

i guess my wishes are a way of feeling a step closer to what i want,

when in reality, i took a step back.