You know the nerdy girl you see? The girl who smiles? The shy girl? The girl with glasses? Do you know what's behind the glasses? Pain.
She believes life equals misery. She asks, "why live if you are going to die anyways? Why do we live if we are going to feel pain?"
The girl, she cries every night. She has friends. But friends that do not know her pain.
No one knows the pain she feels. Not even the person who knows most about her. The lies drive her crazy. She feels like she is going to explode.
The lies she told when she said she was 'fine, okay, and happy'. She never truly knew how been happy was.
She feels like a loser. No one ever asks her how she truly feels. The embarrassment of telling anyone will kill her. She had suicidal thoughts no one knew.
She marked an 'X' meaning how she is. But, no one asked her what it TRULY meant. No one even paid attention to it, they just shook it off.
That girl... Drowning in her lies... The truth is hard for her... She doesn't think she can make it... The lies... The truth hurts the most...
That girl, drowning, tears on her face at night, and her pillow...
She sleeps... She drools as she sleeps dreaming about those lies... Sweating...
She wakes up, "morning," she tells everyone. Smile on her face... The fake smile...
Her eyes... Shine bright because of the tears...
She feels fake because of her fake life, those lies haunt her. And forever will.
