Made For A Black Queen

chapter 1

Made for a black queen chapter 1 - picture of royalty on the cover/above/side.

|Royalty|

"Royalty you are beautiful" my mother always said to me

"Royalty you're flawless" she always reminded me

"Royalty you are my black queen" she said to me everyday.

If only she knew those words she said to me went in one ear and out the other. Everyday I look at myself in the mirror and see an ugly African American girl that nobody wants. All I see is flaws. I see every bump, dark spot, dents,and bags. Everything. All the bad things stick out to me when I look into the mirror.

I see girls walk pass me all the time. And their flawless. I always think why can't I be as pretty as them. Why can't I have the confidence they have. They walk with so much attitude. Like they don't have a care in the world. And it hurts to know I will never have that, that self esteem they have.

I sat in front of the mirror in my room poking at my face. Why do people always lie to me? I thought as I sat their looking at myself. Why try to make me feel good about myself when they know its not true? I ask myself.

I sighed and started to do my make up. When I finished that, I took out the flat iorn and started to do my hair. One thing I do love about myself is my hair. It makes me unique. Every girl out here act like it's a competition to have long hair. Not I. As soon as my mom approved that I could cut my hair I did. And its been that way for years.

After I was done I got up from my chair and grabbed my back pack, phone, and house keys. I walked out my room and headed down stairs. My mom was in the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee as usual.

"Hey mom, I'm about to head to the bus stop." I said as I started to head to the door.

"Alright honey. Have a good day at school and remember you are beautiful no mater what anyone says."

I sighed and looked down "OK mom bye, love you" I walked out the door before she could answer. The wind from out side blew strong as I walked to the bus stop. When i got there I took out my phone and got on tumblr
Till my bus came.

When the bus pulled up I put my phone in my back pocket and got on. I sat by my best friend and gave her a hug.

"Hey best friend how was you weekend?" She asked me as she put her phone in her back pack.

"Short, I wish we didn't have to come to school" I said looking at her.

"Girl right, I didn't even feel like getting up early this morning" she said