What do you do in a nightmare? When it all feels so real, you have no idea what to do and you don't know if you're awake or not. No one can help you or so it feels. What do you do when you're in your 6 year old body again and you can't seem to escape. You'll begin to think you're going mad as though you've lost all control of yourself. Wondering through the middle of nowhere alone is enough to make you scream, let alone reliving something that once already happened.
At age 6 i once found myself walking through woods after school, no intentions, no ideas just walking. I had no idea where i was but i couldn't seem to stop myself from walking further and further. In this mysterious place i saw what i thought was a tree ahead. I immediately felt myself running towards it as if i was hit by something that then made me lunge forward. It was like when two magnets click together from a certain distance. When i got to the tree i felt as though i belonged to it. I touched the tree and saw millions of images flash through my mind. I fell to my knees. I reached my hand up once again and touched the tree, i saw a boy, he was standing across from me. I tried saying hello and i got no response, so i stood up and tried to touch him, my hand went through him.
I watched the boy with intensity as he pulled out a rope from his backpack. He slowly threw it over a branch, and pulled it down towards him. He then took a piece of paper and a pen out of his bag and breathlessly wrote on it, within seconds he was gone. His paper had fell from his fingertips to the ground like a feather. He was there without really being there. I saw a glimpse of the paper that had the words "Im sorry" written on it. I slowly released my hand from the tree to look up and realize i no longer saw the boy or the paper.
I felt like i couldn't escape quick enough. I had so many questions. I felt as if i were in a nightmare and i couldn't wake up; i tried touching the tree again, i saw images of more notes, more people and more ropes. More "I'm sorry's" and more "Goodbyes". I wanted to run, i wanted to run so far away, i wanted to run until i couldn't run anymore. It was something i couldn't escape.
