Heavy. So heavy...
I frown at the difficulty of the movement, finally sensing my eyelids lifting up.
A tree. So near. I stare at it for I don't know how long...
Finally, I blink. As I feel a light touch on my foot.
I drop my gaze. A leaf is grazing upon it and I suddenly shudder.
That's when I realize. It's chilly.
I bring my arms around me, trying to warm me up. As I do that, I look around me.
I am indeed outside.
Where exactly ? I don't know.
What day are we ? What exactly am I doing here ? And how long I've been there ? I don't know either.
Suddenly, a buzzing sound comes to my ears.
I turn, trying to locate the source of the noise.
My hands fall to my sides and collides with hard wood.
A bench.
So, I'm sitting on a wooden bench.
Taking a closer look at my right, I finally notice what seems like...a phone ?
That must be where the buzzing sound is coming from.
Again, I look around. White blouses everywhere.
It seems like the same place.
I look back at the phone on my right. It keeps buzzing.
I look at it some more. Now I frown.
'Aamir'
That's what it reads.
Without knowing, my finger finds the answering button.
Everything is mechanical.
I am not thinking. I can't think to be precise.
"Hello? Hello, Shilpa?"
I keep looking at the indicated time, following up on the screen.
Aamir calling...00:04...00:05...00:10...00:22...
I can still hear the voice, calling my name through the phone.
"Shilpa, are you there ? Please answer me, I really need to talk to you."
That sounds really familiar. The voice, the words. Everything.
"Were you there when I needed you to answer me ?" That's what I can make out from the whisper I just heard. It seemed to come from me but I'm almost certain I didn't say anything... Or did I ?
"Shilpa? Hello? Please Shilpa ?"
I blink and unconsciously bring the device to my ear, not bothering about my hair, already covering it.
"You..." The word leave my lips with a confused tone and I don't know why I feel the need to talk to that person.
"I know you." I think I sound like I'm certain this time.
"Thank God you answered Shilpa !"
I feel my head tilting slowly to the right.
Relief.
That word just came to my mind. I don't know why.
"Shilpa, I'm so worried about you. It's been days you didn't answer !"
Silence.
Wind blowing...
"You know, about your condition... I can't help but feel guilty."
