War Is Love

Chapter ten

        Mum had me in my bed just to lay down for a while and called the school saying I wouldn't be there tomorrow. I was laying in bed feeling scared and victimized, Austin would do anything to make me feel this way.

"Mum" I said quietly

"Yes Harry?"

"Can I quickly go to Louis'?" I asked

"Sure, but be back quick" I looked into my mirror. I looked awful... Red eyes, red face, messy hair and large bags under my eyes, I'm a mess. I put on a black sweatshirt, black shoes and left outside in the cold wind. I looked up at the grey clouds covering the whole sky, remembering that earlier today this sky was blue and it was warmer out. Arriving at Louis' house I walk up to his porch and knock on the door. Louis opens the door and gives an unexpected but unimpressed look.

"What?" He says looking upset

"I'm sorry... I never knew this was going -"

"You know, I knew when I first met you that there was going to be a whole lot of shit I'm going to go through, I just didn't know it was going to be like this" Louis cuts me off

"But-"

"I don't wanna hear it, Harry that video is public, anyone can see the video" he cuts me off again

"Are you seriously blaming it on me?!" I teared up even more

"I really liked you Louis, I 'd sacrifice anything for you-"

"Harry-"

"YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I STOPPED CUTTING! There, that's my secret, before I even knew you, I was a suicidal teen!"

"BUT YOU'RE THE REASON WHY NO ONE LIKES ME! I'm sorry for what happened to you before we met but I can't be with someone who's just going to make me look bad!" Louis yelled

"Make you look bad? Oh please, all I've been trying to do was help!" I cried

"Help with what? Look where we are now, not so good huh?"

"Help with our fucking relationship! Ever since we started dating you never did one thing to prove to me that you wanted me more than anything but I did. This video isn't my fault" I continued crying

"And aren't you the one who's always been telling me to be comfortable with who I am? You where the one who told me never to be scared of what the world thinks but what are you doing? You're also hiding from the world! Don't be a hypocrite Louis" I added

"Harry this isn't going to work out either way!" Louis yelled

"I KNOW BUT IF ONLY YOU GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE!"

"No more chances Harry, THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR HANGING OUT WITH YOU!" He added

"Louis-"

"YOU FUCKING GAY FAG, THATS WHAT YOU ARE, GAY, THATS ALL YOU'LL EVER BE, YOU BEING A FUCKING FAG IS WHY NO ONE LIKES YOU!" Louis yelled. I'm speechless. Not even words can describe how broken I feel. He literally shot me in the face with those words like he meant it.

                     *Louis' POV*

        I actually can't believe I just said that. I feel like an asshole. Harry cried a lot worse

"No... No that's not what I meant" I said looking down. Harry took off, he ran away crying. I've never felt so guilty in my whole entire life.

"Harry please!" I tried stopping him, but he continued running off. I walked back inside, slammed the door shut and sat with my back to the door crying. I'm even worse than Austin. Why did I do this? Now Harry will never ever talk to me. I hid my hand in my face and began crying even more