Before we got to Hayfield, they evaluated...me. Flo does NOT like doctors, or to be asked questions. The psychologist who did our evaluation was y'all, slim, and had roux glasses that made him look the part. "Hello Samantha." he chirped as he sat into the worn chair opposite of me. Flo told me to keep quiet. I didnt say shit. " i am doctor Lowe, can you tell me why you are here today?" Flo had started to cuss him out, it was funny so i giggled. Dr. Lowe looked at me, then wrote something on his clipboard. Flo called him a fat snitch....but out loud. His head jerked up. "Ex-excuse me?" i shrugged my shoulders. "She doesn't like you. She doesn't like doctors." his eyebrows furrowed and he wrote for a good two minutes before he asked. " who is 'she'?" uh-oh
i shook my head. Flo shushed me. We sat there for a few minutes until he tried again. "Samantha, has your stepfather ever... Hurt you in any way?"
I froze. Flo immediately took over. " i wish the son of a bitch gets hit by a bus on a daily basis." doctor lowe just looked at me with an open mouth. I just sat there. Waiting.
He looked down and wrote some more... Alot more... And got up. " ill be right back Samantha" before i could say anything he was gone.
Flo was immediately relived, " you can't do that!" I hissed, pulling at my hair that wasn't stuffed under my grey beanie hat. As always Flo laughed at me. "He got what he deserved, or did you forget what that mother fucking pig did to you?"
I ducked my head in shame.
Oh I remembered.
I was eight years old, and mom was at work. I'd just came home from school, he was in the living room drinking a beer. As always, stinking drunk.
I tried to creep by to get to my room. holding my breath, I scooted along the wall behind him but he still heard me. "what the fuck are you doing, you idiot?"
I froze. my breath stuck in my throat. he chugged the rest of his beer, and stood up. he faced me, big, angry, drunk. "I'm talking to you, little bastard." I found my voice "i-im going t-to my room."
And to my room we went.
I tried to tell mom. But i couldn't open my mouth to say all the horrible things he did and made me do.
Dr.Lowe came back into the room with a pretty brown haired woman. "Samantha, this is Miss. Ashley. She will be your case worker." Flow laughed. I just stared at her.
"Hello Samantha." her smile was warm as she put her hand out for me to shake it. I almost did when Flo began to scream. I fell to the floor covering my ears.
