Little Ghetto Girl...

Chapter 18

Na'Kole P.O.V.

Hi mommy baby.!!! I said sweetly to My'Lyn making her smile as I changed her diaper. This little girl was really my world if I got anything from King it was her beautiful self.

Hey boo.! Amber said coming into my room. There's somebody here too see you. She said with a little attitude. Ima just take her. She added picking My'Lyn up and walking out. And King entered. I haven't seen him since that day, it's been about three weeks.
       He looked a mess. Dreads was every where, eyes was blood shot red, he looked high as all hell. I never seen him look this bad. The room was silent for a second, I sat on the bed with my arms folded I honestly had nothing to say to this man. I was getting over him pushing my feelings to the side.

Look I know I fucked up I fucked up big time and I really do apologize for that. I can't sleep, I can't eat, I been fucking up in these streets and I been slippin, I love you with all my heart you mean so much to me I promise you do.! Take it for what you want but I can't not just have you in my life. Na'Kole the first time I laid my eyes on you and I found you I knew you was gonna be something special to me.! You don't have to take me back I just needed you to know.

You don't love me.............you knew getting with her was gonna hurt my feelings and you still chose to do it. That's not love that's straight disrespect.! I love you though. I only imagine myself with you and only you. I was scared as fuck to leave that hospital with you, he'll I thought I was finna get set up again. But you was different something about you screamed at me that I had to have you. From the moment we shared our first kissed I was in love with you.! I was heart broken when you just up and left me like that I didn't know what to do, I was so lonely I damn near cried every night till you came back to me. Every time you gave me a lil taste I thought more and more of just letting you have all of me and letting you take my virgenity. Now that's love and what you did to me was play me, hurt me, and take me for granted. I made a promise that I would be the best mother I could be to My'Lyn and she not even my real child but I love that lil girl to death and that is the only thing I beg you not to take away from me.! I said sternly watching every tear fall from his face.

I know you hate me but I really really do love you, and you mean so much to me you just don't know, I swear I can't even function with out you.

I wiped my tears that I didn't realize had fallen down. I fell to the floor holding myself crying. He just didn't understand how hurt I was and how much I truly loved him. My heart felt like it shatterd in a million pieces. The part that hurts the most is when he didn't even come after me that day to show he even cared or anything he stayed with her. He nealed down on the floor beside me and pulled me into his arms letting tears fall from his face. He tried to fight and push him off of me but he just held me tighter.

Baby I'm sorry.! He repeated over and over again. I just held on to him tightly and let quiet tears out. I ended up falling asleep on him.

When I woke up I was still in King's arms we was laying in the bed and he was watching tv. I turned over and layed my head on his chest. It was 12 at night. Got damn I was sleep for a long ass time. He looked down at me and I couldn't help but look at him. I missed this man so much but I refuse to let any nigga run over me. He got up and sat on the edge of the bed.

Hopefully we can get back together one day, but I respect your decision for now and Ima just leave you alone. I left you 5K on the dresser for you and My'Lyn. You know I'm just a phone call away if you need me. He said before getting up.

I love you.! I whispered but loud enough for him to hear me.

I love you too.! He said without turning around and continued to walk out.