"I choose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no rejection. And in silence no one owns you but me." -Unknown
And all of those girls be like..
"He's so handsome"
"I love him so much!"
"He's mine."
"Hey. He's right there. Kyahh!"
All of those girls. Ha-ha. I am nothing compared to them.
I am okay by looking at you from afar.
I am okay by secretly looking at you.
I am okay by seeing you smile.
I am so envious of other girls because I can't express my feelings for you.
All my feelings for you are just inside my heart.
No one knows what I have for you.
Sometimes, I just can't bear these feelings anymore.
Sometimes I just want to throw these all away. But by doing so, it makes my heart much uneasier. Somehow, there's still a hope inside me that maybe one day you'll notice me. Maybe one day the thought of you and me could happen.
Loving someone in silence is one of hardest things in life.
Sometimes I just wanted to shout it out loud. That I love you so much and let the whole world know. But I choose not to.
What if you get turnoff?
What if you get disgust?
No. I can't bear that thought. It's better for me for you not to notice me and be the invisible person in your world instead of you being able to notice me with a bad thought for me.
What can I do?
This is me.
I cannot change myself for anybody.
It makes me uncomfortable.
I don't want to be whoever somebody wants me to be.
My suffering of loving you secretly is enough for me.
The pain that I have inside is enough.
I don't want to live by pleasing everyone.
I'm sorry if I'm not pretty.
I'm sorry if if I'm not talented as you.
I'm sorry if I'm not the person of your type.
But I'll never be sorry for being me.
This is how I was born.
I don't want to change for somebody else.
I know that I can take many advantages for me to get close to you. But I did not. I don't know why. Maybe I just don't want to push myself to you.
Maybe I'm just afraid that it won't last long. Just how many things don't last.
Maybe you and I aren't just meant to be together.
But I can promise you one thing..
As the year passes by..
As the seasons change..
As long as I live..
There will always be a part of you here in my heart.
I will always love you..
In SILENCE.
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