The moment I laid eyes on Harper, I knew he means trouble. Pero ako kase 'yung taong natututo sa mga negative experiences kaya naman natutunan kong mas maging matatag.
Kumusta ako? Well, parang walang nagbago. The usual me. At kung iniisip nyong umiiyak ako sa gabi at nagbabasag ng gamit sa bahay, nagkakamali kayo. Mabubog pa'ko. It's irrational to cry over a fuck buddy, kung may umiiyak at tumatangis man, yun ay ang pekpek kong nagdurusa sa tagtuyot. I admit, there's this part of me na hinahanap yung touch at presence ni Harper, maybe nasanay lang akong nandiyan sya at ginagapang ako.
Halos labinglimang minuto na rin ako dito sa kotse ko na kasalukyang nasa parking lot ng airport. Ngayon kase darating ang fiance ni Kuya na si Harris, isang doctor sa Colorado. Isang makatang dalubhasa sa pagpapayo pagdating sa mga pusong sawi. Sawi?
Hurt. There's nothing to hide, I was hurt. Though it isn't enough to make me cry, it still hurts. Mahirap din kase 'yang heartache na 'yan. Wala kang idea kung kailan 'yan darating, nadating 'yan usually kung kilan hindi ka handa... kung kailan akala mo, perfect na ang lahat.
I was never prepared. Akala ko hindi ako tinatablahan ng sakit, but then it attacked me at my most vulnerable state.
"Is that how you're going to welcome me, Parky?", a deep voice chuckled seeing Harris with my brother in his muscular arm.
"Welcome to the Philippines, Harris! Sorry about that... I guess.", I chided while getting him two sticks of his favorite Filipino street food, isaw ng manok.
"I love being with your sister, Paris.", Harris shrugs and I giggled as Kuya glared at me.
"Oh Kuya, wag kang magdrama, hindi ko trip maging immoral sa harap ng may likha. Pwede mo nang ayusin 'yang tingin mo sa'kin.", I joked and he pinched my cheeks.
I love seeing this couple. Sila kase yung nagpatunay sa'kin na love wins over the odds' judgements. Hindi madali ang pagpursue ng relationship na gaya ng kanila. Oo, pareho silang lalaki, but that doesn't mean na madali lang para sa kanila na either i-take or balewalain ang mga opinyon ng iba. It's the complete opposite. Pride, ego, self-reliance and trust is their worst enemy. Pero kahit gaano kasakit 'yung mga dumaan sa kanila, they held on each other. Walang bumitiw sa kanila.
The loss of communication, itself, declared na hindi ko na dapat panghawakan pa ang mga mixed signals ni Harper. Mixed signals nga eh, for sure maging siya ay hindi niya rin alam ang mga ikinikilos at sinasabi niya sa'kin. But I knew better than to hold onto things that lacks clarity. Hindi ako kailanman aasa sa mga bagay na malabo. Asa naman, Parker. Kailan ka pa tinubuan ng 'pag-asa' sa katawan? Ang alam ko kase, sila ang umaasa at hindi ikaw.
I slumped at the backseat of my car, since Kuya said that he'll be the one to drive while Harris is sitting beside him.
"Okay ka lang Parky? You're... spacing out.", Harris inquiringly filled in the silence.
"Yup. Medyo masakit lang puson ko." Natutuyot na kase matres ko sa sobrang pangungulila sa junjun ni Harper. Nyeta ka 'pem! Harper pa rin ba? Move on! Ano, daanin ka lang sa haba, laki at tikas ay forever mo nang hahanapin?
"Gusto mo ng pain killer?", Kuya asked while driving.
"Nakainom na 'ko Kuya, thanks. I'll be fine.", I said then looked outside. " Stop over tayo dun. Kakagutom eh." I referred to a restaurant sa may tabing kalsada. At dahil ako nga ang prinsesa ni Kuya, syempre, nagstop over kami para kumain. They ordered almost everything on the menu that my eyes widened in shock sa mga nakahain sa'min.
"Hindi ako nainform na kapistahan pala sa bayan ng San Diego.", I chided.
"Gutom ka diba?", Kuya said narrowing his eyes.
"Gutom lang ako, Kuya. Hindi ko naman sinabing agaw buhay na'ko or taghukom na bukas kaya kailangan ko nang tikman ang halos lahat ng nasa menu ng resto na'to.", I retorted with an arrogant smile.
"Kumain na tayo.", Harris chuckled as our spoon and forks dove into the food. Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pagkain ay narealize kong sobrang gutom nga ako. Grabe, nakakawalang poise ang gutom kapag sinabayan ng pagsesenti ng aking matres. Feeling ko lahat ng pangungulila ng matres ko'y ipinasa sa tyan ko kaya ganito na lang ako kumain.
"Join us, please.I won't take 'no' for an answer.", Kuya said and I nearly choke on my food as Harper, the goddamn meaty Harper, sat beside me.
"Hi, Parker.", he said casually. At dahil nga matalas ang observation skills ni Kuya, mapapansin niya kapag dinedma ko si Harper, and the interrogation will start... so wala akong choice kundi ang ngitian at batiin din si Harper.
"Likewise, Mr. Allegre.", I said as I took a hearty bite of... Tangna! Pati ba naman mga pagkain ay nakikiayon sa kapalaran ng aking hormones.
"I see. You like that frankfurther.", Harper chuckled.
"Nasa Pinas ka. Hotdog kung hotdog.", I retorted. Mahihiya ka pang sabihin ang salitang hotdog? Eh halos regular mo akong supply-an ng hotdog mo noon eh.
"By the way, Harper. I want you to meet Harris. He's my fiance.", Kuya said as Harris offered his hand and Harper shook it immediately.
Pansin kong nagulat si Harper pero wala namang negative reaction na sumunod pa.
"Homophobe ka?", I asked.
"Akala ko... pero hindi pala.", he shrugged.
"Good. Kase kung oo, ako mismo puputol sa sandata mo tapos ipapalunok ko sa'yo.", I threatened before excusing myself sa takbuhan ng mga kababaihan. Ang ladies' room.
Huminga lang ako ng malalim, nagsuklay at niretouch ang violet lipstick ko. Bakit parang nagcacartwheel ang bahay bata ko? Nakita lang ang ex niya ay nag-enroll na sa school of gymnastics.
My thoughts were interrupted when I felt a hand in between my thighs. "Putangina!", I blurted and someone hushed me.
"What are you doing...", my words were for protesting but it came out as a gasp as Harper pushed a finger inside me. Tangina, bakit ako nagthongs? Hayup ka 'pem! Pati mga undies ko kinasabwat mo. Mamaya ka sa'kin.
"I missed you, Parks.", he whispered as he lift my skirt for more access.
"Harper, enough. Baka hinahanap na ako...", another failed admonition.
"Ano ka, freshmen na kinakaon ng parents sa Acquaintance Party?", Harper said as a knock echoed to the room and Harper took me inside one of the cubicles in the CR.
Harper seating on the toilet seat while assisting my hips. I absentmindedly sat on his lap making his manhood spear me. Tangina talaga, kailan niya nilabas ang sandata nya. Ang alam ko'y kandong effect lang kaya ako umupo, pero hindi ko namalayang may nakatayong sibat palang papasok sa sistema ko. I bit my lip to contain my moan as Harper stifles his.
Naririnig ko ang lagaslas ng tubig kasabay ng dahan dahang pagbayo sa'kin ng hotdog ni Harper. I am helpless again. Fully filled. Haper's talented movements never failed to drive me out of my sanity. Waves of ethereal vibrations are flowing inside me driving me to my climax.
"Isa lang.", I warned when that someone left the CR. He nodded and after a few rapid plows, we found our release. "I changed my mind, isa pa."
Reeks of sex and the slapping of skins echoed throughout the room. Lust is the only thing that's in my mind as I found my second... third and fourth release that milked Harper to his third.
"Long time no see, Parks.", he whispered kissing my forehead as I grew limp on his body.
