High School, The Chronicles Of

Sylvi The Destroyer

There was a girl, and she broke my heart,

then there way a boy, who led me astray.

The girl's every movement tore me apart,

and the boy stayed and taught me to play.

The girl stole away, and left me alone,

when the boy stayed, and his actions atoned.

I felt the break, the tear it my heart,

so did he, and never will we part.

I got a message on my SpeakPage, and it was Sylvi. Telling me that A) She didn't feel the same, and  B) then playing it off like she didn't know I cared still. Wow.. that note you gave me, did it mean anything? remember, the one that you told me you thought you loved me in? i guess fucking not. obviously you just-nevermind. But you know what? I don't care anymore. I won't care and I can't care, because apparently now breaking someone's heart is the normal thing to do. I'll just have to get used to it again, since i thouhgt maybe it wasn;t gonna happen with you.. Then there's the red haired boy, who's hair is so faded it's bordering pink.  His name is Jordan. We met at lunch, when I accidentally stole his seat. He sat next to me, and I could tell right away that something would happen between us. That night we went to the rugby game, and snuck off to the park halfway through, and just layed next to each other and talked. About stars, and each other, and school..and I felt this weight lift off of my chest. I had an epiphany: This is who I can be real with. I could tell him anything, and he would be there for me no matter what.  And i could.  When my mom and step-asshole were fighting, his house was the one i went to. When i was pissed or sad, or anything, i went to him. He understood me for who i was. He sees my flaws, my ignorance, my ugliness, and yet, to him they are beauty. I honestly don't understand how he could like me.. i have so many problems. I worry that he might break up with me because of them. But whenever i mention it, He says "why would i?"