Doing This Alone

The Night Changes

I couldn't help but put a smile on my face when my boss calls me into her office. I was finally quitting. I never thought the Day would come when I get to leave this very tiring job.

I Quickly walk in to my boss's office. "I quit"  I said before I even took a seat. To be honest I never really liked my boss or my job so when my husband practically begged me to quit because of the baby I quickly said "yes".

My boss looks up at me as if I had grown 2 heads. "Excuse me?" she said. I give her the same look "I quit you heard me, I Q-U-I-T, quit."

"What do you mean you quit?" "I mean I quit as in bye, adios" she still couldn't believe it.

I began to realize by the time she gets this through her thick dumb brain, the McDonalds breakfast will be over and I wanted to surprise my husband with breakfast along with me quitting my job.

So I just walked out with my pregnant belly in front of me and my head high.

I was so tired because the baby wanted to kick my butt all night and my husband worked really late last night and couldn't hold me thru the pain. I hurried to my car because my bed was calling my name.

I quickly put on my seatbelt and started my car and quickly drove out of the building parking lot.

It only took me about 2 minutes to drive to the drive-thru at McDonalds ordered our meals and started the 30 minute drive home.

During that ride I thought about how much my life had changed when I met my Husband Jacob.

When I was the age of 10 my father died at war and after that my mother raised me to be a very strong independent women. She was the greatest mother in the world. She helped me deal with the loss of my father and other obstacles in my life. I think about how when in high school when I met Jay on my bus ride home how he was one of my only friends. How Jay saved me from bullies.

How Jay pushed to do better things and never gave up on me. Jay even introduced me to my now best friend Adam. And that's why im forever grateful for him and I love him so much.

Now that my mother lives in another state he's the one that keeps me sane.

When I pulled into my yard I was kind of surprise to see another car there along with my husbands. "That's weird" I said to myself. I grab all the bags of food out of the car and slowly walked in.

I walk in and place everything that I had in my hands on the counter and head straight to our bedroom on the second floor. As I approach the door I hear noises. And those noises aren't noises of my husband,

they sound like a woman's voice. I listen closely before walking in. "MMMHhhm" "Yeeesss". As soon I understand what the voice is saying I pull the door open.

I quickly regret it and I see my husband laying down on the bed as a woman bonces on top of him. I guess they didn't notice me because they keep going until I said with anger and hurt "JAAAAAYYYYY" then I ran up and push the girl off of him and began to slap him in the face multiple times.

How could he do this to me? I was trying to make him feel all the pain and hurt that I felt. I felt stupid and I couldn't help the tears that were sliding down my face.

I knew he wouldn't touch me because of the baby that was in my stomach. All he could do was duck and dodge the hits I was sending his way saying "baby ""baby please" "stop".

After hitting him about 20 good times I walk out of the room but not before kicking the whore that he was with. I walked down the stairs because I couldn't run.

My baby and I were too tired .When I got to the car I just sat there to clear my mind and tears before I started to drive. I wanted to leave as soon as possible but I needed to chill of a sec. I didn't want to get on the road with an unclear mind.

I didn't want to crash and miss up me and my baby's life over Jay.

After about 2 minutes I felt good enough to go and I dint want Jay to come outside so I put on my seatbelt, turned my new JCole CD up to 100 and pulled out of the yard. I went to the one place I knew I would find peace and love Adam's house.