Who Knows

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Sometimes I wonder how these people meet and come to know each other, how they soon learned that the hand they’re holding is the one that they want to hold for the rest of their lives. Finding them walking hand-in-hand with happy faces tells me that they found love. What is it anyway? Hearing them tell one another ‘I love you’ all the time makes me wonder how deep they meant saying those words. Isn’t that the feelings that bear so much emotion accompanies words that’d be so hard to tell? I wish I knew how it feels like… to be told with those words sincerely. How it really feels like to be in that situation… to be in love.

“Gome ne~ Have you been waiting for long?” she almost startled me.

Interrupting my train of thoughts about things I wish I have the slightest idea about, good timing. This person who’s been here beside me for who-knows-when taught me to be thankful for everyday, reminding me how blessed I am having her. Not lucky, but blessed.

I felt a warm hand enveloped mine. It was so gentle and comforting, giving me a secured feeling within this cold weather. As my eyes rolled to the sides to take a glimpse of her, those set of squirrel teeth flashed brightly. I am always so lost for words.

“Unnn~” I shook my head to let her know I just arrived though the truth is, I’m waiting here for almost half an hour. I just don’t feel like saying that I’ve been waiting.

“It’s been so long since we went out together.” She uttered truth as we begin walking.

“Y-yeah.” I tightened my grasp on her hand in which she doesn’t seem to mind. She’s probably gotten used to the coldness of my hands.

Those couples strolling around caught my attention once more. What was I thinking earlier again? Y-yeah, about love. I was just thinking, how will I know if I am in love? I glanced on the person beside me for the second time and felt a sudden rush of blood gushing through my cheeks. There were no other feelings, I can just… smile.

“How about we eat here?” she asked dragging me gently to the window of the said shop to check out the menu.

Her head turned to me to meet my eyes. Everything is like on slow motion as I watch her cute face flash a smile on me, making my tongue tied for that little reason.

“Nyannyan? Are you okay?” there appears frown on her forehead.

“Ah! Yes. Let’s!”

There goes my speechless self again. I don’t really know why but with her, everything seems to be so magical. When she looks at me, I feel like the whole of me is going to melt from the gaze of those eyes. And when she smiles, my insides are like jumping crazily within the little space they have, some even feels like coming out.

“You really are the spacey princess.” She giggled as she led me to sit on a chair.

“Sorry.”

“What were you thinking anyway this time?” Yuuchan asked casually as she scanned the menu. “Ramen.” She whispered.

“Just… stuffs.”

“Stuffs eh?” Her lower lip sticks out and nods like she understands that I don’t want to share it. “So what are you having?” she continued with a grin.

“Are you having ramen?” I asked and was answered by a silent nod. “I’ll have what you’ll be having.” 

“Eh…Nyannyan’s just too lazy to browse on the menu~”

“Haha! Maybe I am.”

It’s not true though. It’s just that, my eyes although focused with the menu can only reflect you on my mind. I mean, I see food but my head is definitely all about you, especially now that you’re with me. Maybe because it’s been so long and I missed you. I missed us being this way.