"Sigh...", its oneword ive grown accustomed to hearing. Ihear it everyday for some reason or the other. It could be my fault it could somebody elses but I still have to hearit all the time. Have I grown distant? Probably not. Have I stopped caring? Not in a million years. Then why does itfeel that way?
Its because im tired. Not fromyou no but from standing solid like a rock. Ive shown strength in the most difficult of times and Iwould like to think that times are much better now. I can drop the tough guy act and be vulnerable foronce. Am I not allowed to? Why don't you see the obstacles we have overcome and realize what we are capable of? Isnt everything miniscule compared to that? Why does it always have to be a rocky boat and I have to steer it out? Cant I take a breather?
Its not that I don't see? I do see.. But I just wished that you would too. Smile and laugh with me, we have had troubles for so long that I am craving for some good time. Is that wrong? I love talking on skype. I loved the fact that I shared that night and I loved everything you said to me. Isnt that way of conversation so much better than involving someone else no matter how close she is to you. Yes we cant skype all the time and I cant read ur expressions and hang on every dot that you type wondering where is that hidden meaning she wishes to convey. I just want words. In their purest and simplest form its we have reached out to each other for so long and its how we will continue to. Sometimes you would have to say things that aren't always nice and you wont like it neither would I but have faith in us carrys. Like you said that day nothing I can say to you will change what we have. We are so much stronger thanthat. Realize this and take a leap of faith. Rest assured, ill catch you.
