It was a other Friday night and we had 8th grade night. It was basically for us to exsperiance the pride and have the best time of out lives as band students. I was sitting alone... Again no friends really but tall boy had lots of friend and made everyone laugh. I wanted to be like that but with what I was going through I never could be that ever. As the game progressed I was getting more and more happy and loved it, this sparked a love of football in me ever since.
All the 8th graders were sitting in a section and I went to sit but then Tyler, tall boys friend called me up and said "he likes you!!!!" I blushes so red because no one had liked me for a couple years not even a crush. We had a pizza break and talk boy sat with me and We kind of talked about how we liked each, Then finally he asked! But the way he asked I will never forget. His friends were annoying him so bad about asking me he says word for word "Will you go out with me so they will shut up?" of course I said yes and laughed. By the end of the game I'm sure he was so tired of me calling him tall, that's all I talked about because I was so nervous.
Finally Hunter and I hit the 2 month mark, I finally said to myself he needs to know everything in my past and his he can't except it Then we weren't ment to me. I told him ever inch of my life, every problem and struggle. Then finally the current struggle depression. He didn't comprehend it at first but then he got it and he broke down all my walls brick my brick and it took a year to do it. With every brick he layed more love on me because he could see the light at the tunnel and knew it was worth the result. He made me who I am to day he knocked me down to make me stronger and let me get up in my own so if I would fall with out him I know how to get back up again. He accepted my past and made sure my future was going to be better.
About a year and 3 months (when we were in 9th grade) go by and I went crazy... I dumped my baby.. My tall boy for a fuck boy. Many actually I had about 3 months of running around being a run around girl and being stupid. I learned my lesson real fast when I learned tall boy got over me. I thought he would never get over me and I could just use him as a free get a boyfriend card for awhile. I hurt him bad and I did him wrong. Thoughs 3 months were the worse 3 months of my life. I struggled with depression, eating disordes, and self harming. I was a mess a complete and utter mess.
Over that summer I took a month to myself I didn't talk to a single boy and I help myself to get stronger I vowed imbetween me and God I would never treat a man or a boy ever like I did him ever again.
Soon enough I coldly stay away from tall boy and I begged for his forgiveness. At 1st he was resistant and didmt listen to a word I said but then I learned maybe I should help him because he is now who I was a year ago. I slowly broke down those walls of depressions and hurt and slowly rebuilt them with love and kindness.
Now we are both in 10th grade and happily together we want through a lot and there is even more to tell them that. We have a stronger and unbreakable bound now and I would do anything for him. But even though you face problems in your relationships try to work through them and if you are causing the problems then change how you respond to people. Change how you react in a problematic situation. Step back say pause and think what could this do to the person I love and care most for..
