Hey.
It's been years since I last saw your beautiful face. Or heard of your soothing voice.
I miss you.
So damn much. But you don't know that, don't you? Oh wait, who am I kidding? Of course you don't. You don't even know how I feel towards you. I'm sorry I wasn't able to tell. I'm sorry I'm such a coward. I'm sorry because until now, I still love you and you still won't have a clue about it.
I think about you all the fucking time.
And it hurts. So bad. Why did I let myself fall for you? I fell so hard I forgot how to get up.
Why you of all people? Why you whom I clearly have no chance with? Why?
I thought I was over you. I convinced myself that I was. Well, for a few months. But here I am, writing you a letter you won't even read. Pathetic aren't I?
How come I love you this hard? When 'us' didn't even exist and you only saw me as a friend? Damn it. Why can't you just return the love I give? Please? Even for just a moment or two? Can't you do that? Because that would be so much easier. I'll love you and you'll love me. Nothing else. Just us and love. Don't you want that?
You said you're tired. That all girls are just the same. That we'll just break your heart. No, sweetheart. You're completely wrong. Because I'm right here. Always. I'll take care of you. I'll love you until my last breath. If you would just let me. If you would just look at me. If you would just love me back.
And if you do, I'm here.
I'll be waiting.
No matter how long. I've waited for more than 3 years. I can wait some more. But darling, please hurry. Because time's running and I can't hold on to this unrequited love forever.
Waiting,
A
