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Miyanda
I can't go, i'm too scared of the consequences, the beatings, being drugged up, being locked alone, being unloved. I can't have anyone knowing what I do, or i'm gonna get hit and abused, and drugged!
Maybe they can get me help, maybe this will all turn out right, maybe I'll stop doing drugs, and maybe i'll stop getting abused by the one I used to love..... Maybe i'll be free. I could be my old self, the strong one. I'm sitting here at the doctors office, he told me I needed to go to therapy for drug use, which isn't my fault. He said I could get help for my problems before it was too late.
I'm scared of what Nick is going to do when he finds out I told them. He's probably going to do the usual which is punish me. His way of 'punishing' me is basically him; drugging, raping, and/or beating me. He would have his friends rape me and leave me in there by myself. He kiddnapped me and told me that i'm not going anywhere, i'm just scared.
He only lets me go out when its important nothing more nothing less, no fun. I have to do what he says or there's a chance I won't live to see tomorrow.
Alright Ms. Gray, Dr. Patel will be back shortly with your papers, have a nice day and don't forget, tomorrow you will go to Novant's Teen Therapy. It's at three thirty pm. Alright now bye bye now!
"Bye Dr. Collins! And I will no doubt"
Ugh! Now I have to wait for Dr. Patel to come. I know it's going to take a while but oh well. I started thinking about what happened before I came here.
-Flashback-
"Didn't I tell you to clean up! I guess you like getting punished don't you?
I was silent because I was to scared to answer, I was under him on the floor while he was straddling my stomach. He jumped on me when I wouldn't answer. He's heavier than me so i'm a little out of breath. I was still silent so he decided to smack me, I felt the burn, more like fire to my skin. I shrieked in pain as he got off of me and dragged me by my hair up the stairs. I sighed here we go again.
"Just because you don't wanna answer me, I'll handle you. You're stupid and no one wants you! You understand me? You live in My house. You do what I say. I don't know why I keep your ugly ass around. It's like simon says if you can't follow directions you're out! But just because it's my game... You get punished."
He slapped me around and screamed at me, while struggling to get me on the bed. I was trying my best not to let this happen, the only reason i'm getting 'punished' is because a piece of paper was on the floor that one of his friends knocked over on purpose.
He kicked me in my stomach and I grunted and fell over while holding my stomach. That gave him the chance to pick me up and throw me on the bed. I just stopped fighting while he raped me. There was nothing I could do. About an hour later he was done, but when he got up, I kneed him down there, where the sun doesn't shine. He fell off the bed I grabbed my sweats and slides and sports bra and his phone and ran.
His boys were to busy playing the game, they didn't notice. I ran down the street then I came to a stop and realized I know the way to the hospital. I heard cars too and I didn't know if it was him or not so I took off running down Peace Haven Blvd. I was running so fast that it didn't feel like I was running. After a few lefts and rights, 20 minutes later I ended up at Baptist hospital. Yes! It hurt to run, but when you're panicked anything is possible.
