ANON

One

Fuck what I said, I don't miss you now-

"Hello?" I answered after I fished out my phone from my little body bag.

"Yes."

"Tomorrow? Sure.. yea, actually I'm currently unemployed and in need of a job."

"Uh-huh."

"Yes."

"Alright. I'll be seeing you tomorrow then. Thank you so much!"

Beep

I put back my phone inside my bag after the call ended.

Great, I have a job interview for tomorrow. Yay! Timing's a biatch but I guess it didn't screw up this time. Ha! Finally, just what I needed!

Man, time really slows down when you're trying to move on and forget about a lot of things.

Sigh

A month ago I'm having a serious conversation with my-now-ex-girlfriend. We were together for almost 8 years when shit happened.

"It's hard for me to see you like this but I really need space and time to think about our relationship." She said.

"I understand and I know I've made mistakes, we all do. But can't we just talk things through instead of having a cool off or something?" I said. Trying to play it cool. And stopped myself from blurting comebacks about how cliched what she said was. And seriously, time and space? Is she Shaider now or something?

"No August. I'm so fed up about our continuous little fights. I want to free my mind from all the thinking I've been doing lately. And though it hurts me to see you in pain, I'm not sure about my feelings for you anymore. I really need the time to think. Can't you just respect my decision, please?" She retorted.

"Okay. If that's what you really want. Just don't forget that I love you, okay?" Though it hurts I agreed thinking that with this "cool off" thing, things will be alright again. But I know deep inside it will never be.

"Thank you." She replied.

That's the last text conversation we had. Yes. She said all those things via text only. Sweet, right? But that doesn't matter anymore. What happened? Well, turned out two days after our text conversation, she was already entertaining a new guy when she was supposed to be "thinking" about her "feelings" for me and our "relationship."

"Why!? Why have you done this to me? I know our relationship wasn't the way it used to be. And I know I've changed, you did too. But this was not the right thing to do. Hell, we're not even officially over yet!" I almost shouted every word while tears were flowing down my face.

"Didn't I tell you that I'm not sure about my feelings for you anymore? I was sad too but then he came along. Can't you see we're not the same as before! The sweetness was gone and I can't feel that you still care anymore. You keep on hanging out with your friends. And whenever you got a job, after 2-3months you'll leave without any reasonable excuse. We're not getting any younger. And I can't see that you have a plan for the both of us in our future. I want someone who can make me feel loved. I want to be happy again." She said those words then tears fell from her eyes too.

"C'mon don't do this to me. I love you. And you know that. We can still work things out, right? We both changed but that's normal. All we need to do is talk things through. Don't throw away our almost 8 years of relationship just because of this. I've told you before that I'm still searching for what I really wanted to do in life, professionally. And you said that you understand. I gave you time, why don't you give me and us time to work what we have. Please, don't do this. I love you." I begged while I'm on my knees, crying.