Of the betrayed one

Back to You

inspired by The Promise - Tracy Chapman (from connor's playlist on spotify!)
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Have you ever met someone that you took forever to find it, but never thought that once you find them, you lost them again almost immediately?

Maybe not. But it's a reality for me.

I, Connor Franta, the one who had always dreamed of a love story where he played an important role in it, has to face the fact that my love story isn't what I've always thought of. Long distance is never what I've expected. not one bit.

But here I am, wishing that I was born in the other side of the world so I could be near my loved one. My mind kept telling me that all these thoughts were no use. I can't change the fate. but the thought of living in the same country as your loved ones seems so nice, I couldn't help it.

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If you, wait for me
Then I'll, come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold, a place for you in my heart
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I stared blankly at the grey clouds, a few droplets of water hit every surface on earth that wasn't covered as I sat on the window sill. Moments like this made my thoughts run wildly but at the same time calming my body. Moments like this made me realize how I value deep conversations that I've ever shared with the blue-eyed boy that I call boyfriend.

I miss him. I miss him so much it hurts.

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Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
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I miss his touch. His kiss. His warm embrace. I miss everything about him.

My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my phone, telling me that someone had called. The music I was playing on before was stopped as well.

I smiled as I saw the caller ID before pressed the green button.
"Troye,"

"Hey Con." my smile faded as I heard his sad tone, suddenly feeling concerned.

"Anything in mind? you sound upset."  I asked. There was a long pause before he spoke once again.

"You," he said. "You're on my mind."

My lips curved upwards after those words left his mouth. "And so are you. I miss you Tro, like, really really miss you."

He giggled a giggle of an angel, making my heart flutter. "Miss you too. how are things going in LA?"

"It's raining like crazy. I miss Australia though."

"Oh, you do? Or do you miss Australia because it has me in it?" He teased, and I laughed at every sarcasm dripping out of his mouth.

"Maybe both,"

"Good."

Silence.

A comfortable silence fell amongst us. A silence where both of our minds filled with wild and frustrating thoughts. I could hear his steady breathing from the other line, coming from the other side of the world, with only a square metal connecting both of us.

I was the one to break the silence, after letting out a heavy sigh. "It's been a few months since the last time we'd seen each other. I don't think I could handle it anymore."

There was a pause, before Troye let out a shaky laugh. "B-but Con, why so sudden? I-I will do anything but please don't-" he stumbled on his words, and I suddenly realized what went wrong.
"Oh my God Troye, no that's not what I meant-no I'd never thought about that!"

He let out a deep sigh with so much relief in it, which made me kind of happy because he's that concerned about me breaking him up.

"What I meant is, I don't wanna wait for another month to be with you again. Please wait for me until I come back to you. I don't care if i have to travel for 17 hours just to see you and deal with severe jetlag. Please remember that I always hold a place for you in my heart."

I could almost sense his lips curving into a small smile, the thought of it making me smile too.

I took a deep breath before continuing. "I might sound cheesy as fuck but that's the only truth."

"Oh Con, you know I'll always love a cheese like you."

His voice was kinda muffled by the sound of him sobbing, and I suddenly felt the urge to teleport to his side right at the moment, comforting him in my arms.

Then I make a decision that should've been made since the first month of our separation.

"Troye,"

I paused. Boy did I miss him so much.

"I'm going to Australia next week."

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I've longed for you
And I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
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"Took you long enough."

The oh-so-familliar voice reached my eardrums, and I immediately turned around. He was there. With those big blue eyes and a toothy smile, hands on each pocket of his ripped jeans.
I walked slowly, despite my needs to hold him so tight in my embrace, and stopped my steps until I got in front of him. An inch apart from his whole beings.

"I have a job that needs to be done." I couldn't hold back a smile.

"Since when did your job become more important than me?" He snaked his arms around my neck, inching us closer as I wrapped mine around his waist. Not a second passed without me looking at his features.

"Not ever." I smiled even wider.

"You should've move to Australia."

"You won't believe me if I told you how many times I've considered it." I placed my right hand on his cheek, caressing it gently.

"I'll always find my way back to you anyways."

Then I closed the gap between us in a sweet, innocent kiss.

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Together again
It would feel so good to be in your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise
If it's one that you can keep
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me
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sooooo that was it. omg the first chapter. 1066 words.
I hope yall enjoyed it!!
next week is an exam week so I wont be updating until later xx

ps i've wrote this since June and I couldnt let it sit on my notes forever ok
ok
bye

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-titi