"Dear phil,i didnt wnat it to come to this but it got to hard acting like i was happy for the fans and...you i didnt want to come off as weak i didnt want to die at first i just wanted the pain and thoughts to end.That damned razor was there when nothing eles was not you not music just the fucking razor.So i just wanted to escape i guess the "drugs" didnt really help i was still fucked up in the mind and body thats all ill ever be anyway a fuck up but it doesnt matter
now im gone im sorry phil i really loved you and i alway will but that damned razor gave me an escape and it went to far the cuts become to much for my arms and went to my leges my whole body cover. Thats why i was alway afraid.
im sorry ive been so useless and broken and just a fuck up i never desved you and i guess thats what got us here.
When you yelled at me for the cuts and scars and the damned razor i guess thats what sent me in this tub with deep cuts on my wrists the anger i got from you i knew i was hurting you so this is how i will be dead.
The next time you see me ill be wearing a long sleved black suit in a cofin im sorry phil i dont know how many time i will say it but
im sorry i love you ill see you in maby 70 years when you die of old age i love you -love your Dan"
Phil finished reading the letter found in dans room hidding in a book 'hes not dead yet he hasnt finished the note'
Phil kept thinking. When phil heard the front door open he ran he ran to dan
"Dont leave me dan please i love you too your not uesless you made me stop please dan dont leave or ill be in a cofin a day after you please dan"
Phil pleadded the taller boy tears streaming down both faces.
Phil huging Dan not letting go "Phil you found it didnt you"Dan wispered. Phil just nodded "i need you dan youre the only thing keeping me alive please"."I love you phil i wont leave,i wont do-dont worry i wont leave"Dan
wispered to the older boy. With that phil conceted their lips draging dan to his room and pushed him on the bed
"i love you so much"Phil wispered pulling off dans jumper and kissing every burn and cut he could see
"i love you" Dan wispered back and after phil kissed every part of dans body they got on to the blishful night of activitys.
